Shhh...

hmm.. do ppl still write blogs nowadays?
Oh well, i guess i will continue to update my life on this place=) for my personal reference haha.
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In case someone else other than myself is reading my blog, this portion is for u=)
well im back to writing blog due to several reasons, namely
- im really bored
- happened to stop by my own blog recently, i read through my previous posts and i was like "Oh, so i was like that?!" haha.. brings back alot of my memories and my emotions then.
- felt that my english standard is starting to go dOWN doWN doWN! & my frens told me that writing blogs will probably improve my english. so..
Thats abt it!
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ok ok ok lONG post again since i didn update for like err...1 year? oh slightly less than that. haha
where shall i start.. oh well i will jus continue from my previous entry..

May 2009
what was i doing then.? lOL i forgot=) basically from May09 till Oct09.. im still an instructor in the "Land where soldiers are born". so nth much to update abt.. haha was rather demanding and strict to those bunch people and wasnt very well-liked by every1.. but, im jus doing my job, and i really wanted to do it well.
plz do not misunderstand, im VERY well-liked by my fellow instructors, haha, really had loads of fun together with them. aww.
so u shld be able to guess who dislikes me? The top & bottom =) if u get wad i mean.

Blah forget it.. shall not go into details abt tt cuz its classified + its very long if u wan mi to elaborate further.

okok so from oct 09 onwards, i was gg on off & leave + MC(for wisdom tooth extraction).. heehee so for the whole of Oct, im basically slacking at home or out wif frens having fun WHILE still drawing my salary =) life was realli heavenly then.
wOoo 11 11 09 haha a day that i was SUPER looking forward to! haha its *** day. before that day we(my fellow instructors from my batch) were kinda like a semi celebrity among my junior instructors.. cuz the juniors will always "wah lau eh.. *** liao lah hor.. sian sia i 1 more year" den my reply will always be "aiya i still long la.. still long. dun say *** first"
UNtil that day itself.. i was sleeping in my office until i awakened by a few bunch of ppl marching and singing loudly=.= was rather pissed when i opened my eyes and look at my watch.. =.=5:50. in the morning. oh 5:50 was considered very early for me as i just came back from my off & leaves. so for the past month ive been waking up in the afternoon.. so.. for tt day itself when i woke up at 5:50am, i was rather not used to it.
but, 1 thing went to my mind tt time, "eh? isnt today my...my *** day?!" and i literally smiled to myself =) oh im smilling to my monitor as i was typing as well. haha so i got up, brushed my teeth, walked around, stoned, and packed my bag & braced myself to leave this place for good. alone in the office, i began to feel some emotions stirring inside me, this place that i hate so much, i actually developed a sense of belonging for it after 1 year in there. its actually a mix feeling joy & sadness for me. as in yea, for me. to me, it kinda feels the same as compared to my previous graduation ceremonies in schools. but b4 tt, i told myself tt i hate this god-forsaken place.. this place where my freedom is bound, this place where.. i had cursed so many times.. but at the point of time when i really have to leave, a weak voice in my heart is whispering to me, "im gona miss this place, this is the last time"...
no matter wad, i gotta go means, i gotta go. i picked up my bag and made my way out. i saw my fren & he said "wah *** liao hor u" , surprisingly, my reply was the same as before! "aiya i still long la.. still long la.." rite after i said tt phrase, i realized its.. now. now im gonna ***.. its no long still long anymore.. haha aw so tts abt it. i got back a card that SO many guys are talking abt. the pink thingy =)
on my way out, i didn realli feel much.. i wasnt as happy as i thought i would be. and i wasnt that emotional as tt morning. i didn feel anything. just "oh im going home".

aww aww aww what a long pOSt alrdy..=.= im just done wif my army life journey. but wow. its alrdy like.. errr 825words?! aww.. gotta sum up and just end this post first.

aww ive gotta say, ive changed. the way i view things changed drastically. aiyo, its hard to explain it here. nbdy will realli believe it anw. but seriously, ive changed. i noe it myself=) so yup the 1 yr 10mths not wasted.nt gonna elaborate here. zzZ will update again soon.. tt concludes my **my life story.. see ya.. for now.

break

ho. tts the end of the 2nd long holiday. =/ didn realli do anything meaningful but oh well. slack slack. will be looking forward to the nxt long break. lets go=)

homecoming

whoo its been a rush. 3 weeks of confinement straight. day 1, went for enlistment duty after tt went back office for briefing on the nxt enlistment duty=.=
the 2nd duty ended early & i went to bc hse to play PS3 lol. played all the way from 1+ to 9+ den went back camp. mmm very unhealthy. kk den its time for my men to get enlisted. 1st day, i already showed them that its not fun to be on this island. haha my face was permanently the angry face. even tho they asked alot of stupid things which made mi felt like luffing but i still pressed on. "FOCUS! LOOK FIERCE!" haha

den they told mi, my platoon will be transferred to another company=.= oh well wadeverrrrrrrr so ok, they are gone. im attached to another platoon. basically im jus a slacker now. nth much to do except for playing pSP & sleeping during office hours & when i feel like working, i jus go out & scold here there den go back slp. =D

nth much to say cuz its all classified. well booked out & went out to watch red cliff 2. the movie changed quite a bit of stuff here & there but oh well. nt tt great but nt too bad bah.. nth much to comment on the movie jus tt its very long & my whole body cant take it
LOL. bleh will update soon !

all gd things come to an end.

lollollol today is the last last day of my leave & off period.. hmm had loads of bored times but had my fair share of good times too. yea yea a new start, a new rush, grr mus drag my unmotivated body to do wad i haf to do!
hm hope EVERYONE can start working hard for this yr too!

uh uh life is fun!
new yr resolution : , be stronger than ever~!

gah gah will update abt my new dudes when i finish the confinement=.= cyaa


ALL THE WHINING IS OVER! NOW IM BACK STRONG AGAIN! MUAHAA GOGOGO~!!

LONG LONG LONG POST.

=.=if every change in this world is reversible. isnt it wonderful? there wun be pain of losing things, but in exchange, ppl will no longer cherish wad they haf.
lol some simple incident made me thought abt this kinda shit.. my mum did some stupid adjustments to my shirt which i kinda cherished when i didn ask her to. pissed mi off to the max=.= irreversible change=.= i noe its initiative, wnana help mi, or wadever.. but i cant help it. REALLY DAMN PISSED, now.=.=

bleh wadever. hmm think its time to do some recap for this stupid 2008.=.=

JANUARY 2008
lets see.. haha was happy to spend my new yr wif my frens drinking at clark quay. HAD REAL FUN! haha mhao mhan angsiang seaN. =) tts b4 my life changed zzzZ
120108 tt fateful day, i dragged myself to this stupid pasir ris bus interchange & was brought to this hellish place.=.= full of uneasiness & i jus followed the flow.. haiz not forgetting the sadness when i see my mum leave me. tt pain.. is real. yea yea so i went on to a new phase of my life & got all my hair shaven. the feeling of being hairless is, realli realli unforgettable.. i nv wanted to shave my hair ever again. tts the day when i stopped looking at mirrors. not forgetting how hard i tried to adapt to my new life w/o any frens for the first 5 days or so.. feels realli damn damnn out of place.. haiz.. hate adapting to new environment.=.=(thx to my stupid PS) assbitch

FEBUARY 2008
haha! this is the part of my life when i had high hopes abt my future & i finally saw wat i wanted. my dream was to at least be at the top few in my platoon, tts when i tried working hard & set my goals high.! tO OCS! haha yea i finally got used to army life. also, not forgetting.. the chinese new yr i spend wif zang, soon, jiahao,linkang, chengjie, daniao, junhui drinking at the stupid "Candy bar" or wadever u call it. haha tts the 1st time i puke until i cant recognize home. LOl
not forgetting how i returned back to sch to collect my results in my sweaty uniform & field pack & duffel bag.. haha yea i saw u then.. but i do not haf the courage to approach u. hm.. cuz i stink then? lol no la. jus cant forget smth. =/

MARCH 2008
kinda gif up hope in everything in life. zZz posted to SISPEC wif a bunch of ppl who jus slacked thru & seeing all those bootlickers fly high to OCS. not forgetting my shitty results & every shit tt brought my fighting spirit to the lowest point. ZZ haha 120308, POP LO! haha. cant forget how it feels like.. reali realli, i felt damn good. it rained heavily tt day. was dripping wet but i was realli very very ecstatic. duno y.. haha will remb all my sergeants regardless u hate mi or like mi or wadever. sgt khairul, sgt alvin, sgt shaoming , sergeant fazley!

APRIL 2008
days in Basic Section Leader Course wasnt ez.. esp wif my low morale when i stepped into sispec. well im in the same platoon as wenzong & ziqi. buT as usual, cant realli clique wif my room mates for the 1st few weeks. tts when i omos went crazy lol.. it realli sux to haf no frens=/ oh well cant forget the 2days1night field camp which felt so much so much worse than my previous 6days5nites field camp
tts when i realli thoght im gg die. lOL leopard crawling across a football field size field took a hell load of shit outta me. doing "fire & movement" for 5 or 6 times aint funny either. Zzz feels kinda lethagic & definitely low when im dripping of mud water frm my uniform.

MAY 2008
after much much torture from 2sg JJS, i somehow felt tt im realli much stronger than b4. at the very least i survived. =) tt guy lol.. attks both mental & physically, but luckily somehow. realli.. somehow i survived phew. uh the 28KM route march is realli omG. walking during midnite realli took the toll of me.. i actually almost walked into a tree & i cant stay with the platoon cuz my focus went away.. =/

JUNE 2008
i wear the CORPORAL rank wif pride as i think i realli worked to the bones for tt rank unlike some other ppl who jus cut corners here & there. mm i was posted back to the same company, staying in the place wher im used to, thus, adapting to the environment wasnt realli the problem. well , the first day of Advanced Section Leader Course was quite bad for mi as i was super tired running up & down helping to settle the admin stuff for my sergeants.
lol i tripped over 1 of the bags & i fell flat on my face. zZ too tired liao lah. when i booked out, was in a hurry, den tooked wrong guy's bag & kena scolded by him.=.= lol wad a day, i dun haf time to argue wif him cuz zhaoperng's dad waited for mi for 1hr ALRDY! wth=.=

JULY 2008
haha its the month of ur bday! lol i PURPOSELY didn wish u but oh well. i dun wan leh. i dun wan to be an idiot like b4. always doing this kind of shit tt makes u feel greater than mi. loL-.- uh uh i forgot u ok.
hmm ASLC is quite tough as we gotta learn more stuff than b4. TSR=.= omg keep failing. wun forget how i get confined here & there for stupid stuff SOC=.= IPPT =.=
haha i tried to stay low profile cuz i dun realli wan to haf any responsibilities. it sucks commanding ur frens. u wun noe wad tone to use. but somehow, my PC noticed mi. & kept calling mi. duno for wad=.= favourite phrase then, "! sir, but.. but.. i nv say anything.."
zzz mayb being exceptionally quiet caught his attention, zZZzz oh well
GRANDSLAM 2:
omg for starters, its a field camp=) haha wet wet, den dig dig dig frm morning till nxt morning.. nonstop=.= ive nv felt worse b4.. wads worse lol. b4 we move to our last place, we were wearing the wet uniform & staring into the dark grey clouds above us. our sgt told us to change into a new set of uniform. =.= i told him tt if we change now, we will get drenched & we wun haf anymore dry uniform to wear! z but he insisted tt we shld change..=.= WAD TO DO?! we changed.. when i was wearing my trousers, the rain came. i totally sian 1/2. ZZZ there goes our only dry uniform
kk den the nxt phase was to march past NTU to a campsite.. weehee in the middle of the nite when my morale was damn low, a group of girls sitting at a busstop outside NTU shouted "hey~ isnt tt the army guys?! defend our nation! press on!!~" OMG jus tt realli brightened up morale. LOl. i gathered my last energy & reached our campsite despite the pain on my feet.
uh tts when i reali learnt 1 thing.."pain can be endured. as long as ur leg is not broken, u can still move it despite how much pain u are experiencing"
=)

do not forget 32KM omg.. its ALSO ANOTHER GRUESOME EXPERIENCE.

JULY 25.. the day i went for starlight.. feels kinda sad to leave my family & suffer in a foreign land. wads worse, tts nth waiting for me back @ home.. no rewards even if i endured through it..

AUGUST 2008
STARLIGHT - omg realli cant get use to the weather there.=.= bunks are realli diff frm us.. haiz tts when i start to appreciate wad we haf. was appointed as the Leader for the platoon for the 1st few days=.= was shocked & i dont realli noe wad to do. zZzz. haf my own way of doing things. haha which not every1 can appreciate. wel wadever, somehow, i managed to get thru..its hard tho. =/
haha reali i swear.. the WARRIOR. is realli omg. rain.. den BIG BIG SUN.. omg but its fun tho. LOL.. the 1st nite out in the forest.. REALLI omg. wet wet wet. somemore at nite, on top of a mountain..1 thing to say.. COLD. FREEZING.omg tts 1 of the 1st times im shivering until i cant slp at nite.. my frens ard me are shivering too. ZZZ realli leh i realli thought im gg die frm hyperthermia... loL quite an experience bah.. cant realli let every1 understand but. realli the word "WARRIOr" suits the experience.

HAHA Rest & R***** SHIOK~ went to take roller coaster for the 1st time & iwas realli sCARED. lol.~! the feeling of losing control of ur own body & falling down is real scary~! haha.
bought quite a few shirt there & went clubbing twice at nite. lOL got caught but =D fun experience la! damn fun!

yea.. when i reach back singapore, i feel.. a lack of belongingness.. everyday in starlight, i wish tt i can go home soon, but.. when im finally back, i did realli feel anything, izzit bcoz no one missed me? izzit becoz no 1 picked mi up at the airport? no1 noes i went overseaS? haiz, i think its all of the above.
Got my Sergeant rank & my sergeant told mi b4 i passout, " i think u are one of the better trainees i haf. Ppl will like u wherever u are. continue this way & i think u will do well in future" haha im realli happy.. i think its the 1st time ppl said tt to mi.. for the first time, i felt useful.. slightly..thank u. sgt thomas.
thank u.. all my room mates! lin shen, kritboon, luosheng, kevin, mengxiang, yijia, khairil, brandon & even tianyu LOL. u guys realli rockX.. relac corner. HAHA cant forget la! zz

SEPTEMBER 2008
uh was posted to Bmt to be an instructor there. um was like a dream come true for mi! hahA september 4th.. LOL any1 noe wad tt date means to me? zzz was in camp on tt day.=.= hugging my fone.. counting how many actually remb. hmm quite very disappointing! uh 050908, mhao organize 1 bbq. haha i went & met most of my frens there.uh but more like. they oni remb his bday.. kinda jealous but oh wadever, i didn realli organize any bbq. gotta thank him realli. mayb he remb. he is a nice fren bah i think he is the onli 1 who remembered.
so sry mhao.. if u see this.. i didn get u a present..im reali sry.. in camp! =.=
yea yea sian sian sad sad. NO PRESENTS THIS YR OK? zz wadever man. no frens wad.

kk went back & took my 1st batch of recruits. kinda like interact wif them cuz i think they are kind of cute & funny ppl =)

OCTOBER 2008
ah this month.. im bz bz educating this bunch of ppl. haiz.. kinda tough job for mi cuz im new & they dun realli care abt wad i say=.= bleh assholes.

NOVEMBER 2008
their field camp. haha they are kind of weak in the mind.. contrary to my expectations.. lOl i wun 4get.. loads of them complain & even cried due to some hard ship=.= zZz we didn realli punish them alot leh... but zzz guess their mind are not correctly tuned=/ haha i got used to the clean clean uniform & felt INCREDIBLY uncomfortable by the slightest bit of sweat & mud. lOL compared to previously i simply lie down on the ground & sleep wif many days of no bathe. LOL.

DECEMBER 2008
tt bunch of assholes finally POP lo! haha quite a pity tho.. wanted to take a few fotos wif them to keep since they are my 1st batch.=/ but didn get a chance to. hmm wad a waste.. well december is a festive month.. went out alot of times & spend aLOT OF $$.

on some random day, saw my previous instructors in SISPEC. when i was doing some "sai gang"
he jus gave a comment, "chaoyi! why u doing this? i tot u quite up 1?" zz i duno if he is sarcastic or wad but tt comment realli made mi think. "yes..y? y am i doing this? my performance was rated good when i was in training sch. y.. y am i now in such a situation where i wasnt put to good use?" mayb the later part i may be rather arrogant. but oh well. im me, its my oppinion.
really leh. i dun feel tt im any inferior to those who are appointed wif higher & more impt duties. so.. why? why is the same thing happening again? no matter how much hard work i put it, nobdy notices? no results are seen.. y do i work hard for? =.= demoralized..
i started to develope this mentality "since ndby will notice my hard work anw, y not jus slack off. makes no diff anyway?"
z but on the other side of mi, i wanted to show tt im useful, im realli good, they shld regret not promoting mi. zZz wadever man. i guess i will jus act according to instincts lo. realli leh. main thing is i didn get promotion is simply due to the fact that, i came into the wrong place @ the wrong time.. they jus do not need another guy to take tt place at the moment. =.= wth why.. why am i the onli unlucky one. why am i owaes so unlucky. why mi? =.= why did i owaes did not achieve wad i wan?z ah forget it.

24th Dec. did smth crazy. cuz on 23rd DEc, i was on Duty... & i kept slping.. i duno y, i dreamt of u. lol like wth? after so long? haha same here. i had the same thinking. i tot i forgot all abt u ZZZ at the moment of impulse, right after i reach home, i went to look for ur address. zz the method, nobdy wanna noe. lol its REAL crazy.. i cant even comprehend wad im doing too
yea yea went out to buy some present for u. cant think of wad to write on the card cuz. there is reaLLY REALLY too many things to write for u. too many things i wanted to say but u didn gif mi the chance to say. well i think i sorta can guess how u feel. i feel inferior of myself too.
i cant think of a better way to gif u the present.. cuz i think, no i noe u dun wanna see mi.. haha so i did wad i did!
yea yea u msged mi & i realli cant understand wad u truly meant. im angry, ur first reaction wasnt a thank u. & u didn even thank me at all.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz wadever la. at least i made an appearance. take it as i threw $ into the drain ? i dun care. at all..
NOW.im angry again! of my mum.. ZZZ my SHIRT!!!!!!!!! $$$$ no more $$$$ to buy new shirt la!! wah lau!!!!

YEA YEA now im back at home recovering frm all the $ i wasted this month.

lol

=/ nth much to do at home. haha quite tired frm ytd=/ oh well slept the whole day & realized.."oh jus another day." zz oh well cya haf fun~

did some silly things which i duno why i wanna do oso. lol but oh well=.= the thought is not realli reciprocated but.. kind of expected it. LOL wth. izzit tt scary?

OH well~ like i gif a damn.=D

REWINDD... REWINDDD...

ohoh. ytd went out wif the old old kranji clique. haha. quite long since i last see them but oh well they are doing fine & i am doing fine too=/ had quite some fun eating & toking cock & drinking some coffee @ TCC. haha they are too engrossed in toking cock until the staff start to look here look there zzz. oh well. take note, i used the word "THEY". haha cuz i didn haf much to say since my life is realli like revolving ard SAF SAF =.= & now im SAD.=.= felt so outcasted from this society. sian. oh well somehow managed to stay alive.
after tt went to drinkkkkkkkkkkk abit abit & my frens drank quite abit. haha. well 1 thing, im getting lousier & lousier at drinking..-.- oh well less tolerance to alcohol=.= weak ass me.

uh so talked quite abit of cock here there & find out some HOLY OMG secrets abt my frens. lol ok they are good ! kk den kinded ended the day quite lamely. went back to eat some supper & went back home.

take care bro, some things u dun haf to say it out for mi to understand ur situation, i may seem tt i duno anything but actually i do. haha, stay strong~

kkk tts all for u ppl. thx for reading.. byE~

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rather free recently after 3 months of hectic rushing here & there. im still the same me. didn change. thinking back.. 1 yr ago, this time.. hmm shld be working lol & bz thinking of ppl at the same time trying very hard to get ppl to go out wif me. lOL!

this yr this time. i got tired of beggin ppl to go out & im sleeping all day long lol. so didn improve, deproved. well met a hell lot more ppl as compared to previously, but oh well, generally im still in a fairly screwed up situation.

haha year is ending soon, am afraid of wads coming up nxt.. the feeling of anxiety & unsettledness is in me now. duno y, bcoz nxt yr, this date, i gotta start deciding for wad i wan to do abt myself again. No one is going to choose wad i gotta do for me anymore. zzzZz i think i can be addressed as an "adult" soon enuf.. zz now i realli wish to stop growing man. lol. quite a childish thought but. YES. TTS ENUF. I DUN HAF TO GROW ANYMORE!

well well random tots cuz im jus too bored at home blah blah. gotta update a SUMMARY haha for this yr in a few weeks time ! =x cya

LOL

woo. back frm the "land wher soldiers are made" umm umm. had quite a slack week cuz im a slacker as always. confined 2 assholes who are sleeping when every1 fall in. feeling quite guilty thus i cut it to 10am release. zz guess im nt tt strong after all.
quite screwed up week cuz i KENA alot of stupid arrows. DEMONSTRATION for BASIC ASSAULT COURSE=.= had to act like some crazed beast placed on the battle field & could control his "aRGHh argh arhh!" warcries=.= well i certainly look like a fool=.= THEN,SOMEBODY ASKED MI IF IM A CHRISTIAN. neh neh. i said no. & poOP 1 times Christmas COS duty land on my shoulders =)

also, sent out 1 cockster who fell down the stairs while walking slowly. uh sad for him.. fracture =/ duno y, i volunteered to send another guy from the other company to the hospital & had to act like his maid or wadever shit-.- its this guy wif some 6days constipation due to field camp & his stomach is hurting like hell. funny shit.. he is drenched in mud & camo cream, looked totally devastated. zzZ uh den i had to undo his pants for the nurse to put some water into his asshole.=.= ewWW! ok tts it

quite a boring life im leading cuz its revolving around army army & army=.= ughh i wanna get outta this shit sooN!

brain

mm now im wearing my PJC PE attire. thinking back, exactly 1 year ago, i was a proud student of this wonderful college called Pioneer Junior College. mm i think i shld be preparing for my A levels' i still remb, this time of the yr, im hugging on to my lousy K750i & waiting for it to vibrate.=)

once it starts vibrating, i wld smile widely to myself, & a whole lot of happiness would gush into my body.. but if it didn vibrate for 1 to2 hours, i would lose my fighting spirit & feel verrrrrry verry loW.
i wonder if i have grown up since then. =/

this morning i woke up in the same boring look & saw a broken msg frm an unknown no. in my fone "[..]ery long time but what your do i appricate it. wish u well on everything your do. take care misses."
i duno y, suddenly, my wild imagination set in, cuz the front part wasnt readable, i started to imagine the wonderful & most happy msg tt i wanna see. prolly like "[hey.. how are u doing? we havent met up for a v]ery long time.... & i wished tt the msg is frm you. haha silly me. wishful thinking=.= replied to that GUY & realized tt he was my recruit who was posted out =.= zzZzz boring.

but duno y. this small incident brought back loads of memories to mi. i started to reflect alot.. how i miss my school.. how much time has flown by. how dumb i was or rather how dumb i am. since im still dumb=.=

mm some update, jus finished field camp. quite tiring for mi too. learnt quite alot of stuff even tho im still COCKING UP alot of stuff=.=made hell lotsa mistakes & hope i learnt from it. uh. still surviving.. 4 more weeks to go for this bunch of ppl.

even tho time always seems to be crawling day by day. but suddenly, i got this feeling.. "omg? im a 10 month soldier already?!" now its NOV already! the 1st day i went into army was like um. the day b4 ytd to me. =/ kk mmmain thing. you got outta my life for 11month already. i can still remb clearly how coldly u did it. yes. its a good thing. i thank u for tt realli. at least that murdered my wild guesses. haha i planned for everything anyway. i know ur answer b4 i asked =) too bad, 70% of my brain still wanna bluff myself tho. anw. wads past is past. duno how i suddenly felt so much for u today but ok randomly i shall make NOV 7, a day to remb u. tml, i wun remb u anymoRe.! byeee

7 MORE WEEKS!

yay. am counting down the POP for my recruits.! am writing less & less here cuz every serviceman is issued wif **************. well tts all i can say abt it, its CLASSIED information. thus i am less motivated to write here! haha.

been quite a tiring week & i realised tt i am training my own body tgt wif these new soldiers to be. mm quite a troublesome bunch of ppl but i think i am getting a hang of it. i will control them MY WAY. those who go against me SHALL BE DESTROYED & those who are wif me shall trife!
MUHAHAHAA

am quite tired & bored of this lifestyle cuz there is realli nth much to look forward to. mm hope i can find smth fun to do every week end if not, by NOv nxt yr, i cant imagine wad i will become. =/
gah plz find mi to haf fun~

phew

hmm a short break for mi & im gg book in for guard soon. zz well its tough to control ur emotions while at the same time making ppl feel the need to move fast. haha im still learning but oh well. guess i gotta get a hang of it soon.

ahh got into some trouble here & there & i keep making mistakes.. STUPID MISTAKES which prolly make mi look stupid in front of ppl. well, i havent got any punishments yet, but i tink they will seriously come soon enuf, i swear.

gah putting tt aside, haven been gg out to see the world for quite some time.. seriously feel bored but still dun haf the mood to step outta my home. ZZz so i haf been doing some random stuffs. & went back to look at my previous fotos.. =x had fun last time seriously.. now im missing them.. al the ppl i've met. all the ppl i haven see for soOOO bloody long ! grrr
lol seriouusly.. look at the date

sentosaaaaaaaa

haha. nice picture. a simple picture tt makes the mood better. hmm finding things to make u smile is very easy,so, smile while u can! =)
=.= i guess smbdy hacked into my acc & wrote tt lame ass emo entry lol, COMON LIFE IS GOOD! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL! happy happy happy!!!
went to sentosa with my section mates today lol. its quite funny to see 7 semi botak guys gg to the beach tgt & play frisbee & struggling with the volleyball. lol quite a gd meet-up after a few weeks & i see tt every1 is still doing well & im HAPPY for them. well 1 of my sectionmate jus broke up wif his gf & he is still able to smile. perhaps tt smile is forced, tts wad guys like to do, to act strong & "dun care". lol when he told us abt it, he was still semi luffing, which make it sound like a joke. i commented on tt & he replied "haha, den wad? u wan me to emo meh"

lol omg either he is very emotionally strong or he is a very good actor. well he left alone quite early & tt suggests smth.. bleh oh well. back to the topic, i had quite abit of fun here & there bah, sentosa is quite a weird place & makes u jus wanna take ur clothes off =/ den, when u take ur clothes off, u will tend to look at ur own body & compare wif the OUTSTANDING BODIES
ard u, den u will start to feel... INFERIOR! LOL. sian sia!
went to 7-eleven to buy drinks & saw my long lost fren, Mr Zm. haha he looked @ my body & his 1st sentence was "eh? how come ur body liddat, i tot u go sispec got train?" zzz wad a way to say tt my body is not beautiful.=.= lol oh well tts the sian part.

KKKKK shall nt describe the whole experience today, i noe im not realli making sense & im like jumping frm topic to topics but OH welll. try ur best to comprehend wad im typing =) cuz my fingers move faster than my BRIAN =D :random note,damn long nv see brian le sia!

joke! y sia! zzZ

woo

yay! im at home at a thursday night!

muahaha! my life now is quite ok.. somehow managed to get along wif the ppl of the same badge in my company. my..company..my.. zzz=.= haiz got quite a shitty company & the intakes are like zzZ. i was a man wif great dreams... but somehow, fate didn allow mi to.
my great dream is to create new leaders, leaders who really deserve to be leaders. not those cock suckers who somehow got gd results & ppl think tt they are smart wif good "leadership qualities". but in fact, i think they are jus bullshit=.=
looking at ppl ard mi, call mi arrogant or wadever nonsense, some of them seriously jus make mi feel inferior. they are categorized in the same category as me, which means tt the whole grp of us are the same level, same qualities, etc etc. omg sia, i think its jus too ez for ppl like them (& me) to get this rank=.= duh wadever
certainly in any community, there will be ppl who think tt they are good( eg, me) & ppl whom u jus cannot get along wif. zzZzz oh weLL.

putting tt aside, im posted to some loser company, i shall not name it, who only take in losers or rather, ppl who gave up on themselves. =.= blehh i thought they finally answered my call & wanted to gimme a chance to change something but. oh well. some assholes shld jus *!@$#%^&

kk happy stuff, mm went for on job training on tues, haha saw alot of them being very happy when they graduated. tt brings back memories.. haa to think now im the 1 standing at the grandstand making sure no parents do stupid things. i cant forget tt im the 1 in the parade square nt too long ago.. hmm. well time sorta flies but, certainly not fast enuf.. hate my current life & PLEASE, HELP ME! GIMME A CHANGE! haha hmm its very tired to be an usherer, but i think its very fufilling! =)

nxt topic i am still quite sad abt loADS of stuff, in fact prolly angry.. but i duno if i can change it.zzz oH WELL. life's jus quite SUCKY

ops wad am i saying =.= haiz.. oh well CELEBRATE WHATS RIGHT WITH THE WORLD & NOT WHATS WRONG~

- i managed to book out today & on sat & sun =)
- i dun really haf to chiong sua! =)
- i haf my own free time slacking at night =)
I HAVE A VERY HAPPY LIFE! =D

-bleh tried to play a game but i lost so quickly lol. bleh too bad~ i sucked at this kind of games, while i tot i cld go further=.= zzzz game over =D

JUST another day

thank you very much for those who wished me happy birthday! i LOVE YOU LOADS!

oh. its a sat & im quite tired cuz jus got home not long ago frm mhao hse. haha met most of my frens there & haD quite alot of fun. wanted to go home & stay hoME for long but somehow i over slept .. haha anw this week end is short. mm seems like every1 is getting on well & they are growing & improving & wadever u call it lol while im still the same=.=

hmm lets be optimistic yeah? lol lets see.. my birthday was spent in camp quietly sleeping in bunk & playing my psp. lol=.= but oh well at least i got 1 present compared to my bunkmate who didn get it. haha. mm kena-ed guard duty on sunday & gotta reach the FAR FAR east bitch place by 6pm =.= BUT! im LUCKY. cuz there are 50- 50 chance tt i will get weekend guard duty & i GOT IT! but those who kena saturday guard duty is lagi sad haha. so.. im lUCKy!

oh well. at least i haf my psp to acc mi thru the nite so i wun feel tt bored & lonely. dereforee, im glad enuf tt i haf psp wif mi.

LIFE is FAIR.my ass =.=
i tot seeing a shooting star & making a wish will make the wish come true & the person luckier.. apparently not=.=

p.s. sry alex if u misunderstood.. i dun literally mean shit.. i jus 4got the name so i jus used "shit" to replace the word. sry sry. oh well ppl lets all go to the settlers cafe @ SMU!

class out.

oh ho.. today went class outing.. ok.. guys outing again. lol was expecting the class girls to go but somehow i think they are of higher level & dont reali feel like mingering wif us so oh well.
ok went to alex's shop. omg sia nian qing you wei. haha he did smth which minority of the ppl of our age will do. haha so played some shit at his shop or erm place his business, aiya duno how to call it la. hha

well class peeps are fun, at leassst had a lil break frm my current bunch of super uber close frens. lol not like i dun like my uber close frens but oh well, abit of change is definitely good.
haha so showed some support & had quite abit of fun.

bleh wanted to go out haf fun but =/ short of $$ & not realli enuf manpower so we called it off. zz quite dumb but mayb the feeling is there. so went home after abit of mac & took the stupid $3.50 NR3=.= duno FOR WAD!

mmm ok tts abt it for today well smth joke happened & i realli feel quite proud abt it lOl. shall keep it to myself=.= even tho its nth great. haa.

=.= 5days to <>

home.

well many things happened. if u're free. lets read some loNG story.

STARLIGHT
mm its a real bad while on the other hand good experience. haha there is nth much i can say cuz i dun wana get charged or wadever shit. well few things to sae, its hot, den its wet, den its freezing and tiring. last but not least muddy/dirty. haha but that certainly made mi a stronger man. haha

R&R
haha this portion i guess i can say more abt it. jus theme parks theme parks and theme parks! zZz its my 1st time taking a roller coaster & i finally experience y so many ppl are afraid of taking it. =.= b4 everything, i see ppl chickening out at the last minute.. in my mind, i was like "zz loser coward".. den nxt moment, i sat on the stupid thingy.. THEN, i simply lost control of my own body..=.= im like tossed ard like some dog & the experience aint good at all..LOL its REALLY SCARY. OMG my face is like cramped up & i hugged the handle or wadever shit tt secures ur body to the thingy super tightly.

there is this bitchy thingy which reaches the peak and practically place u perpendicularly to the ground & jus hang ther for 7 seconds.. so u can haf a nice countdown b4 u actually FALL.=.= tt bitch is like sUPER TALL & IS REALLI PERPENDICULAR TO THE GROUND.. OMG SHIT MAN! well tts a pretty good/bad experience tt realli scare the living shit out of mi.

well after tt all the nights were all shopping sprees.
mm i practically bUY any shirt which seems slightly appealing to mi. i barely try out the size & i jus bought w/o much hesitation. haha
oH well bought quite a no. of shirts & went ard sight seeing. WOOOwad a SIGHT. if u noe wad i mean.. the sceneries are REAL BETTER

uh the last day was quite saddening cuz i realli cant bear to leave this beautiful place. right b4 i leave i had my final taiwan meal which is some weird pasta, a treat frm my PC. heh heh. shiok~
oh well b4 i noe it.......... im flying.. bla bla bla.. den im back to singapore.

HomE
didn realli feel enthusiastic when i touch down.. its like.. far frm my imagination.. previously i was so so so eager to go home, but once we reach back, i dun feel much. mayb its bcuz i remb tt i still haf loads of trouble waiting for me at home=.= oh well saw my fren's mum being so touchy wif him & i was thinking if my mum will do the same thing to mi. LOL. isee tt he is really missed.

bleh so waited till 530am b4 i take a cab home. when i reach home, my mum was like "oh u come bac alrdy ah." =.= den she gave me some breakfast & went back to slp=.= OOHHHH wELLL... so i went to the comp & start updating myself wif some stuff.. tts when my dad came out frm his room. he walked past me & didn utter a word..=.= OMG!? lol luckily the 2nd time he walk past me he said "eh?! ur back alrdy ah?! how? izzit fun?" duh standard question. OH WELL. i bet nbdy realli care so i jus stay low profile =/

Passing Out Parade
hoo. gd news is tt im gg pass out frm this shit 6 days after i touch down on singapore. was tortured for 3 full days in parade & on the 4th day. every1 was feeling so HIGH. lOL say bye to grass & mud for alot of us =) if u get wad i mean. lol.

b4 the parade, i specially made a call home to make sure my mum doesnt come to this lame parade. haha dun wanna trouble her to make this lame trip jus to watch this lame parade. mm oh well the parade was long & tiring. & until this part wherby the parents will come down & help their sons put on the chevrons(3sergeant rank) things start to get cranky.=.=
every1's parents was there & suddenly i feel so outcasted lOL. so i did some gd deeds & helped them take fotos. tt explains y i dun haf much fotos on this POP. zz oh well. am quite glad tt i finally survived all the shit. am not proud of it tho, cuz many weak asses also managed to pass it=.= wadever man.

heheeee im posted to be an instructor =D. if u got any younger bro gg army soon, pray hard for him =x
taata. its quite long liao. time to chill off=/

hoo. the lone warrior finally got his chance to take a long long break.

d-day

well kinda miss home. but i will jus face ahead & take everything on like a MAN. will be back as a man too. plz miss me & anticipate to see a brand new me.

haiz.. there is nth i haf to leave behind.. i haf nth to fite for.. zzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzz SIAN!

omg

seriously i dun realli care abt this FINAL mission that is comin previously. my mentality was like " oh sian field camp zz" tts all. but ytd nite, i duno wad came into my mind. seriously.. i began to think abt HOW im gg miss everything tt i haf here ( practically nth) but duno la. jus this feeling.
its jus like tt time... A levels.. was counting down & kept thinking tt "zz theres still alOT of time left.. no wrys i can do it.." den suddenly POP, A lvls is jus the nxt day.. i seriously cant slp the nite b4.. but well its mY lousy attitude which made mi such a failure today. well this time round, even tho its the same feeling, but i duno how i can screw up, but i still feel some sort of uneasiness or uncertainty or wadever.. zz cant realli find the correct word for it.

oh well. tooday finally came out early but frens are all still bz. OWELLS. i will jus try my best to waste this 1 and 1/2 day b4 the finale..zz

schooooool

woo went back to sch todae & didn really do anything special but yea collected a useless piece of paper.. mm had a "tour guide" to guide mi ard pJC had quite a good time chatting wif MR GZ!~
well quite enjoyed the whole thing & the food frm the cafe, which is somehow rather cheap compared to outside food haha guess im still a kid who still find $4 for a drink too expensive.
ahh b4 leaving the sch i saw a bloated ms lee lol. after seeing her really make mi reminded of my sch days. its REAL fun & i seriously dun wana leave the sch todae. zz slacked till the last minute b4 i realli no choice gotta go den i decided to leave my beloved place. hmm swear i will be go back again when i come back frm the STARS.

haiz. really gotta go soon. kinda miss everything here, which i used to take for granted previously. hmm.

chasing after the LIGHT from the STARs

heh. my luck is semi suay. pretty normal. so lets not complain anymore.. since life is SUPPOSEDLY GREAT. kk finally released frm jail on friday & im quite happy. bought mac students meal & tts for dinner.=D cant believe tt even wif my botak hairstyle tt mac staff somehow allowed my to buy a STUDENT meal =D guess i jus look tooooOOooo young for my age. =/ well enjoyed myself at home wif my beloved pLAYsTATIONpORTABLE. woOOoo i lOVED IT TO THE CORE OF ITS MEMORY CARD MAN. played till nite den went to slp already.. was preparing myself for sat=/

SAT
erm yea so i was anticipating myself to be very BUSY on saturdays but somehow it ALWAYS turns out to be the other way. i was sOO bored tt i jus anyhow call my normal weekend go out buddies but SOMEHOW again quite a few of them are BUSY until they cannot even reply. they haf my sympathy man.. i hope they are coping on wif their BUSY life. went out for fun anyway, didn do anything much but jus wasted our time and slacked thruout.ran back hoME frm cck in the evening & prepared for after 9 activities. went to bathe changed & go out again. =x quite a bad lifestyle..zz obviously my parents MISSED me but well... i NEEDA HAF FUN! lol nvm, i will give my sunday to them hha.


well reached home at 530 & still tried to play some games on the comp but too bad. eyes began shutting down at 6..=.= k so went to sleeP! & tts it! z will update more soon.

2 things-> looks like im the only bloody idiot who still remembered our bonds. go freaking stay BUSY ASS BITCHES. i wun care anymore zzz

-> gonna change to be a stronger man soon.

STARLIGHT soon.

whew. its another bookout & finally a break from the evergreen & the everbrown. if u understand wad i meant. but nvm, shall not keep toking abt tt.

hmm went to meet JW & guys ytd. haha had loads of fun toking rubbish jus like b4. guess im too tired tts y i keep talking abt all the shit ytd. lol. hmm went to the MOF for dessert ytd, well the dessert certainly tastes good but i doubt the price is suitable for a poor fellow like mi, who treats cornetto ice cream as a luxury good. bbbut thE ICE CREAM IS SERIOUSLY GOOD ! haha. worth trying if u wan to throw some $ away.

well after tt went for dinner & was discussing abt wad to do after tt. after discussing for abt 1hr+, we decided tt there is nth to do so we went home=.= HOLY SHIT MAN WAD A WASTE?! this is becoming a great problem man. how come we got nth to dO?! zzzzzzzzzz the weekend tt every1 looked forward to is wasted. zzz kk nvm so now i will wanna take this chance to make a notice:
ANYONE GOT ANYTHING TO DO, PLEASE CONTACT ME, PLEASE ASK ME OUT!

k tts it abt tt topic

shall not talk abt boring green & brown life
mmm exactly 1 yr passed. i believe that this is not the state tt i expected myself to be in 1 year ago... bleh. wadever man. time flies~ shall look forward & face STARLIGHT SOON! grRRrrrrrrr

unlucky or ...?

hmm. its been a while and nth is going on well.
well im hanging on to this life but things arent going well as i said, im rather unlucky or shld i say VERY unlucky. or mayb its nth to do wif luck, jus tt my life is screwed up.=.=

- CSB FAIL <- Combat skills badge. .. really nth much to say.. its a navigation test which requires u to look for 1 special tree in the middle of a forest during the day and the night. my group found all the 3 special trees tt we need to find but we didn find the 1 screwed up ass tree which is 3km away frm our start point.=.= den. we fail. - SOC FAIL -.- nehneh i started out quite fast and i tot i was doing well until the last part. ( standard obstacle course: jus run run run den jump over a few logs, climb over a wall, etc etc den run run run again.) the last part, i tot " this is jus a trial test.. lets jus slack a while b4 i go to the end point". zz after tt, den i realized i fail by 13seconds.=.= and tt caused mi 2 weekends.=.= - MOSquito. small problem but im quite angry as well. i got 94 mosquito bites on my body.. neh neh. its supppeprrr itchy and after tt i went to count. cool huh. take tt. tts the main problems which pop out these few weeks. was VERY DEPRESSED. i duno y im sOOOO screwed. =/ watever man. if this is the cursed life i have. i will take it. i will live it the screwed up way. zzzzzzz ps. not to mention the previous screwed up things in my life tt make mi so angry wif my ownself.. seriously...

I HATE THIS! zzz

waste

pfft. i tot that i will haf a very good book out todae since its a long weekend=.= well nth much happened this week & it is far frm a happy or "okok" weekend.=.=

well for fridae, oni few of my peers are free so i stayed home to rest, means doing nth & my bro is using the comp. zzZ so i somehow managed to grab 1 guy out & had supper + tk cock for a while. k quite a boring session which i tot will be the worse outing i will get this weekend. but =)

k so nvm sat, i went town wif my small grp of frens to slack ard & haf dinner which is quite a waste of $ . had QUALITY food tt costs $16+ which cant even fill 3/4 of my stomach & is seriously faR FROM SATISFYING. well i wil let tt pass so heck it.
after tt went to thon LK hse & duno wad i did there except for a few rounds of mahjong nia. hhaa! i didn lose & tts quite encouraging. another not so happening day but bleh.

well sunday morning, i check my handfone.. kuku bo lang frm my class reply mi ( the day b4 i asked abt whether they are interested for class outing. & i specifically asked for a reply no matter wad the answer is) qUITE pissed but well i can still take it. =) so I PLEADED for a reply when finally onli a handful chose to sympathise wif this pathetic loser who seems so despo for a class outing. so i recieved quite a few msg wif a big"NO" slapped into my face. =) haha nvm lo cancel the whole thing lo since im the oni 1 interested in meeting up wif my ex class. since im the only 1 who is so free. since Im the onli 1 having enuf time to go out.. so be it then! =D

yup so slacked for the whole day. den, i experienced another 2 UNFORTUNATE EVENTS.=.=... =.=haiz as tho my weekend is not sad enuf, my woes jus keep piling up.

HAIIIIIIIIIIIZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. i realli need a LONNNGGG sigh to release some anger=/ wel lets hope mayb tml smth nice will happen. zzz

p.s. doesnt really pay to be kind. even tho tts wad i think, i will still perservere to be a nice guy! for now.=.=

=D

im back! well its been very long since i last blogged..

am in the infantry now & not very happy but struggling to survive. 2 weeks in the new course is making mi blur=.= rifle got taken by instructor for the 1st time but lucky tt i didn get punished. planned to stay low profile like bslc but=.= some how the rifle incident made ppl in my platoon noticed my presence=.=haiz.

well for beginners i wanted to stay low profile cuz i dun wanna be arrowed for any leadership roles as a trainee.. it sux. tts why im trying to stay low as hard as i can but somehow fate wants to mess wif mi & i guess i might kena some arrows soon=.=
haiz.. quite a depressing week cuz really got no motivation to keep mi going... just wanted to follow through the actions & relax until i finally pass out from this place. well for kind-hearted ppl might wanna sms mi to encourage mi to keep gg! haha i think tt will seriously help =D

k anw am FINALLY OUT AND IM GG ROCKK THIS TOWN AGAIN! MUaAahaha!!!!

phew.

whoosh! im outtta bMTC! the final days there are really outstanding & memorable. =/ hope people will remb mi in a good way. loL well i dun think i can forget them... in a good way or the other. haha lOVE my section. i seriously think its the best section i can find in tekong. loL( i did a survey. so no joke) yea

HAIL. Kestrel platoon 2 section 3!

oh my platoon peeps are great too. including mi. haha. well seriously feels good to be free now! haha so if u are damn bored & dun mind seeing some weirdo whose just released from a cage, feel free to contact mi! lol cuz im damn bored as well! =x

well watched step-up 2 recently, haha quite a nice show but yea enjoyed the moves & songs more lol. quite a nice show. recommended to watch =)

hm yea went back to band wif kenny & bel. rather dumb for us to go back cuz we oni noe the sec4s. and not realli noe but yea their the oni ones who seen us b4. =/ lol but went back nonetheless. haha felt damn extra but who cares. we're the most senior, we're the boss! loL. tried playing my old bass drum again but seriously poofed. as usual i dun count & i anyhow anyhow den ya. lol sux like cock. looks like a loser when an alumni goes back to perform & plays like a shithole. haha BUT WHO CARES! =X

Well i sorta missed playing in a band but too bad. theres nth i cant do. im no longer associated wif MUSIC. im a KESTREL WARRIOR! oh no or rather, a SAF SOLDIER! yea. kk tts abt all liao! cya soon=/

ps. POP LO!

LUCK

hello hello. im back from another week of =).

main happenings.
-slack
-slack
-slack
-live grenade throw
-luck
-eat eat eat
-rat raid
-nite punishment
yay. recently i duno y the week has been so slack. from after lunch we are like basically slacking for eternalty.. damN SHIOK. haha. so there was once. my platoon mates & i had to pluck weeds.. Combat Fit enhanced leadership soldiers plucking weeds. how cool. haha kk main point, i was plucking plucking den i saw a weird & small green thingy. i plucked it out & thot "wow. a 4-leaf clover". haha so i touched it, made a wish, & threw it away..

after tt i went back to my bunk to slack mroe & my platoon mates had to do some shitty jobs like rearranging the storeroom. AFTER THAT, they went upstairs & asked for a switch over, so i went down to continue their shitty job.
AFTER AWHILE, the sergeant came in & asked "y so little ppl in here" den he walked out & called for the wHOLE PLATOON to come down. i guess THEY moved abit slower den THEY kena pumped alot alot alot. =) while they are getting pumpings, i was slacking in the storeroom =D

L-U-C-K

nth much to tok abt live grenade throwing. as the name suggests, WE THREW REAL grenades. ok tts all.

rat raid. lOl my fren found a rat in our bunk & like 20+ ppl were chasing it ard the room. a rat which is oni like abt 10cm+ lol dumb shit. the rat was caught & it looked damn cute. so cute tt we named it "Thermis" & tried to keep it as a pet. BUT IT WAS ERADICATED SOON BY OUR SERGEANT.=.= HE REALLI DONT RESPECT LIFE

nite punishment was cool. ppl failed to turn off their lights after lights out & every1 kena screwed inside out. pumpings, alternate leg thrusts, flutter kicks etc etc..=D ppl were like moaning, verge of tears, screaming in pain, while i was luffing. cuz it is realli damn funny if u were there, lol i nv thot i wld be able to see that in reality lOL.

TOTALLY OWNED

=.= sux! lol went out wif my frens ytd... TO THE PUB! haha well it kinda sux for mi cuz i realli cant speak & whenever i try to speak, my throat will hurt as tho it was pierced by a katana! zz so yea. tts abt it.lol

kk ytd was kinda weird thing cuz asked alot of ppl out & many rejected mi. =( luckily enuf, 8 ppl went there together! haha quite a crowd=) well for a despo monster who was jus released frm tekong jail ( ME) was quite happy to step out to look at all diff kind of human beings roaming in the outside world which cant be seen in tekong. hmm does it seem hard to understand? nvm putting it simply, was enjoying myself looking at ppl of the opposite gender=) sounds perv!

okok so went to the pub after alot of weird thingy happening like seeing fireworks. haha didn expect to see 1 tho. but the sight of it realli brightens up my day! when we reach clark quay, we found out tt there is free admission to ARENA. haha so we went in to check things out. =/ quite disappointing tho, cuz every1 was jus sitting down & listening to songs. no 1 is dancing. yea so we went out soon after.

went to candy bar & ordered some tequila thingy lol. at 1st there are 7 of us. & opp our table, theres a grp of angmoh women who is like so high=.= lol they are like dancing in the pub.=.= lol weird huh. had quite abit of foto-taking & shaking den smth bad happened. i cant reali remb wad happend. LOL cuz i kept on drinking drinking drinking drinking.my brain went fuzzy & fuzzy. by the time junhui came & i went wif LK & CJ to pick him up, my mind was already owned.lol. tt was the time when i knew tt i DRANK BEYOND THE POINT OF SOBER. lOL. w8w8. its not like i got so drunk tt i forgot everything ok. i still remb. jus tt at tt pt of time, my brain was realli fuzzy & i doubt tt i can walk straight. lol.

kk so after picking jhui up, i bought nissin cup noodles. lol. after eating we returned to tt candi bar. i oni remb, i went in & fell asleep.. lol after tt when they are leaving, i seriously went to PUKE. PUKE PUKE PUKE=.= was totally owned by alcohol. lol. w8 w8 i seriously not tt drunk, i still remb wad happened ok! lol we walked to a bus stop & took NR. after tt jhui woke mi up & he sent a drunkard home. yea. we alighted at the bus stop near the petrol kiosk. SEE I STILL REMB. TT MEANS IM NOT TOTALLY DRUNK. I JUS FEEL FUZZY & NAUSEOUS YTD.!

okok went home & changed. slept w/o bathing. loL woke up @ 8+ and went to see doctor immediately.. lol my throat.. totally owned. yea hope i will get better soon enuf.

owned.

=.= totallly owned. had a soft sissy voice to begin wif & now its gone as well.=.= screw the sore throat and regular coughing. lol now i noe how it feels to lose ur voice.

=/ originally wanted to go out wif my frens but the fact tt no voice come out from my mouth turned mi off totally cuz i will jus walk ard like a dumb person who duno how to use hand signals too. GRR SUX SUX SUX! to add on to it, my mum kept on shouting to mi to ask mi this ask mi that from this part of the house to another. totally irritating cuz she noes i cant tok now & she still keep on doing it.=.=

So i jus slept for very long todae to recharge this tired body after tt field camp tt owned mi totally lol. didn realize the tiredness of my body until i actually reached home to sleeeeeppPPP

grr plz gimme back my voice soon & i promise to use less vulgarities in future!

hello

hello. i m back! hmm its been a month or so i guess but well. im jus lazy to update since i am not realli allowed to tok abt military secrets like "how a recruit's life is like"

well only thing i can sae is its quite tiring & the schedules are quite tight. ur whole military life is oready pre-planned for u nicely by the higher-ups & u jus haf to do them w/o questioning. haha

yea back frm field camp & is seriously super tired. lol hmm i guess i didn use my brain for too long until i didn realli noe wad to write so, jus 1 word of advice for a males.

- Dont worry when u go into the army nxt time, ur life is oready planned nicely, jus go according to the flow & nth will go wrong =)

5more weeks to POP! lol

D-Day

ok. its D-Day today =)

lol i tot i will be cool abt this lame day cuz im oready "mentally prepared". but in the end im still abit =/ lol. cldn realli slp well last night & i oso duno wad im thinking abt=.= lol so lets hope i can blend in to the crowd later on & 2 weeks will ZOOM past!

hope tt naruto & bleach will come out b4 7am... if not i will be so damn emo later cuz i cant wait to see the nxt episode! =.=

dinner.

yea its a dinner wif the odac ppl. haha didn see many of them for so super long & i realli enjoyed their company lol=.= sounds dumb.
okay had dinner at cafe cartel which is quite good ( not too good for the wallet tho) haha. enjoyed the food & the battle between siewhuai & Junhui. loL comical. yea so after tt went pool.=.= i still super sucked at it tho. but nvm. its ok. i dun haf talent so wad. haha oh i wanna thank jhui again for luffing & mocking mi when i play pool LOL thank u v much.! haha well after tml i will no longer be a civilian =/ will miss my family & eevery1 else but yea. SO WHAT MAN.
the world wun stop revolving w/o mi so who cares haha
okok reached home 2am last nite. had a little chat wif daniao & hj & mhao. its rather weird tho. for guys to chat till so late wherby the contents are so insignificant=.= even tho the trend is still the same =) : when guys get together & chat. they will most likely drift to something perverted. haha

yea tts abt all cuz i realli cant remb much abt ytd liao loL=/ will blog again tml. abt my last days as a bOy. lOL

Devil.

yay. im back from another gay party.! this 1 is less gay but the fun is the same!. hhaha. hmm so it started wif some dinner at some fish & chip place in town. lol. there was this guy servicing at the stall saying "byEeee~~" to 2 female customers in such a cutee~~~~~~ way. some may even use the word *****( hint: something which is very sharp tt grows on top of the head of a bull)
yea so i felt tt i shld try learning such cute way of saying bye too so i repeated after him, "byEeeeEeee~~" den i saw him walking right bhind mi. den he said alot alot alot alot of spanish-like english (simply cuz i cant comprehend his profound english). yea so i replied "oOooohhhh ok." ya den he went back doing his work. =D

nth much. lol

ok so was some crap here & there den we squeezed up the super squeezy 190 to go home. =.= the 190 is simply. crampy. i cant even move much & i had to remain in a super awkward manner but.. i like....... LOL nah jk. jus very weird during the bus ride lo.

KKK so we reached the desinated house. cool. vodka vodka vodka. wad more can we ask for. lol duno y they ki siao drink so much at 1st=.= think cuz its free ba. tt s y they keep drinking even when their faces were oready red like =D lol some special case tho, -> emo. hhaa

kk so i didn drank much & i slacked ard waiting for time to slip by like this. =/ Medal Of Honour, mahjong here & there, slack, stone....eat noodle. tts all for the thoning sessioN! lol

im reborn wif my bad personalities. beware.. since it doesnt pays to be kind, y not jus enjoy wad i like to do! hmm.

countdown: 11 days

lets talk abt the new yr eve. haha
its xh bday! & i went to get some stuff for him personally.. haiz its nth nice tho.. no $$=.= ok so after tt CJ7 wrapped tt present for mi & =) dun think xh likes it but nvm lol. at least i bought smth. haha
ok so after tt went to meet them. tot it was 530. den mhan told mi its changed to 6pm.=.= so being very bored, i took the LRT & went 1 round frm cck to cck. =D when i got off, its 6 =D jus nice! haha.
so the ppl who went were : Xinhao, ShengWei, Minhan, Chaoyi, Daniao, Linkang, Sean, Angsiang, Kangwei, Enqi, Alvin, & later joined minghao + his lil bro. Serious case man. its a Xh's frens' all stars! its cool tho. haha so we went to MOS to eat & after tt they went MOS to dance. lol. being introverts, some didn go & decided to drink instead.haha
initially wanted to get into a pub, but most weere full, too bad then, went beside the river to booze-.- heh heh. got high after drinking some shit & became very random lol. guess tts wad alcohol does to our mind eh? haha
so very good, we sat at a place wherby we can hear the fireworks, but we cant see them. lol! crapped alot & went back home soon after.. haha den sm1 vomited(into a plastic bag) while sitting in an MRT. weird huh? haa

the EPILOGUE

wee today marks the end of MANY THINGS! i jus realize! lol.

todae i worked for the last day & am gg get the dumb pay onli at 7th jan =/ which means i dun realli haf many days to spend =/..
tt place aint realli nice to work in but, human haf feelings, especially mi. LOL ya will prolly miss tt place abit... the ppl i met there.. the things i did.. everything.. haha =.=
ok not realli in the mood to blog abt long cowcraps but yea. i will miss everything which ended todae..


hmm i guess its time i put down my pen. oops right.. i need a title for the next book...lets see.... ah! hmm w8 i still need sometime to find a new character to write about....

christmas + christmas eve.

okay~! have been out v often recently & spent alot of MONEY duno FOR WAD?!=.= i dug out my savings & its still nt enuf! =.= its only tues & im oready flat. zZ

yea so went out wif tt gay-ass grp to do some gay-ass stuffs during christmas eve.
went to dine at cafe cartel! 1st time there lol. the food tastes rather gd? lol i cant realli taste much cuz i keep sneezing. the onli remarkable stuff there is the waiting time for the food... its coOL! its abt 1hr + ! lol aiya cant blame too. its CHRISTMAS eve =/

after tt went to buy some bEEr. ( NOT MY IDEA THX) which costs like bombs. luckily the 50% off sushi brightened up my day as i bought like ALOT ALOT ALOT of sushi for $3.65. haha

oK. SO THE GAY PARTY STARTED at KW hse. we watched some prison show by the rock. haha its nice tho.. but it feels rather weird to watch it wif a bunch of guys at tt kind of time. lol almost fell asleep but. ITS REAL NICE!.

we watch watch watch until christmas came. we didn realli care abt it tho. we were more interested in how the Rock play football.
it is followed by gay-ass cookie making. its SUPER weird for guys to make cookie at tt hour... SERIOUSLY=.= lol but tried to make it anw. at the final step.. the HEATing part. Kw's oven can onli go to 100+ degree celcius b4 it "POP". too bad.. the cookie doughs haf to go sun-tanning in the oven & didn get a chance to be cooked=.=

yea nvm.. played indian poker later & realli had loads of luff.. =D the forfeits are realli GAY!. well fell asleep after losing a few rounds of chinese chess.

its quite an enjoyable day & few words could sum up how i feel: FUN. GAY. CRAZY!

anw.. finally. i wanna dedicated some thx to thyechuan who told mi LOADS of stuffs in army to better prepare mi for the future! and to i wish all the best to every1 including the.....

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Alvin Kok Wei Jie =)

christmas + christmas eve.

i sux totally

i sux totally. serious.

WORK

yeepee~ todae i guess its the 1st time ever i love my work lol. usually my job is a fly-whacker but todae, i seriously feel tt im working in the cafe.lol!=)

kk so at 1st im rather free cuz there are nth much gg on..yea so took some pics when my "boss"
werent looking.! =) lol cant imagine wad he will do if he sees it! =p


-my new found fren "ah kim Goo" who stands beside mi (beside the counter) everyday i talk to him quite frequently when there is nth to do! lol

-a very nice "Royal Truffle chocolate cake" lol ROYAL leh! hhaa a wicked cool angmoh came in to buy this thingy & i accidentally topple tt slice of cake & i keep apologizing. lol but hes nice he said nvm=) yea so tt particular slice of cake bcame my dinner =) IT TASTES SERIOUSLY GOOD!

-OKok SO after tt, i made sandwiches. it was my 1st time tho. lol but yea guess which 1 is i make 1...... =.=

erpx so after tt the event started & many ppl start coming in..den i started working like a cow=/ lol made alot of milo. & seriously, i dun even haf time to go toilet=.= or rest. i hafta serve drinks, take orders, calculate the costs of the event, break & make ice, clear the tables & duno wad more.lol

im happy tho, dunno y. i jus hate sitting there and stoning. loL perhaps this is a symtomp. a sign, tt im a workaholic=/ lol


-pls leave a tag =)

rainy tuesday

=\ went to work wif abit of burning passion in the morning. cuz i woke up at 5 todae to blog=) den after tt, went work! lol w8 w8. i literally saw, a LOCK, ON THE BAG!.
i was on the verge of luffin out even tho im alone wif a bunch of strangers in the train. but i only heard abt the wonderful tales of how ppl lock their backpack but haf nv ever seen 1. im so proud tt i actually saw a LIVE "LOCK ON THE BAG TM"

kk bac to serious stuff... tot im gg b late again cuz i left hse at 6:07. super late=\ even tho i still miracle duno wad -ly reach there b4 7! =) haha ran here & there jus to prevent myself frm being late again. lol i was late the 1st day of work, dun wanna be late again.. yea. so i reached dere & was quite lost abt wad to do.
kena alot frm the boss early in the morning cuz im seriously at a loss =.= even tho i got quite abit of complains/scoldings/reminding here & there, i realli feel tt i deserve it. haiz. too stupid lo!
yea yea after a bad start, things started getting better when she left =D lol was finally able to feel less pressure on mi cuz i realli super scared i make more mistakes.=\ phew.

- wiping tables seriously kills lotsa time =) (when u duno wad is there for u to do =\)


- after my A lvls' i nv dreamt of writing so many stuffs AGAIN! =.=

- this. is the most common thing i see at work! (staring out at the window & stone)

aiya. work is rather hard or fun at the same time! depending on how u do stuff & how u view work as =\
LOL.

rainy monday

bahh. todae was a weird day oh i mean ytd.. haha didn had time to update but now. yea.=)
okay so it started like im slping at home w8ing for time to fly past. until sometime my gd FREN ask mi if wanna meet den go town tgt. den i said ok! haha i tot everything is rather confirmed & we will oni haf to state the meeting place to ermm to meet? ok yea so jus when i got downstairs he told mi the thingy was pushed back till 6 & he is not gg anymore. =) so i was v happy.

therefore, i looked for the other grp of ppl who wanted to go out. but they are not ready..yea so nvm i w8 at the void deck. lazy to go back home.. zz wasnt in any good mood anymore & mood got worse when miscommuncations happened =\

yea anw its fine cuz we all finished wad we had to do soon enuf & i get to meet my class ppl too =) yay. lol was searching high & low in the the rain for tt "mc cafe" brian mentioned & i later realize i kept hanging out at the wrong mc cafe=.= lol.

anw quite a nice thingy i found them later on even tho all i found was 2 ppl wif 2 psp, who seems so engrossed to it. lol. nvm nvm i found them & its good =)
yea so later gz came too. this party bcame rather fun & after having KFC for dinner, we decided to watch the golden COMPASS! go watch the movie whenever u got time too!
-the fish bowl to rear fishes. by great brian.

oh. so after tt when we were gg home had lotsa fun listening to brian's wonderful jokes. lol duno wad goes on in his mind. seriously. LOL.


-the lights that goes "ummmm um um ummmm". by great ervyn

had a rather happy day even tho i still hate the rain =\ haha yea. bye bye! for todae =)

WONDERCY RELOADED.

=)2nd time blogging after a long break and ya guess i gotta start frm ytd. had a bachelor guys' outing and probably we really proved tt it aint so lame to haf 5 guys walking ard aimlessly. haha.






*the discussion.













*the process








yea so we reached *********point and had our dinner. wanted to watch some movie at 1st but =( cant find any nice thingy to watch. haha. so AGAIN, we wondered ard aimlessly. looking at many random stuff & discussing abt how we gonna try out new sports & stuff. oH yea. most of the time i had them searching for smth wif mi =.= tt smth is so hard to find & went to duno how many thousand places which came a a naught=\

proudly presenting.. DA EMO KING! =D










yea yea so after tt, went to buy some beer & drank it in some stupid playground. yea got crazy after drinking it & were like toking loads of crap. luffing luffing joking crapping =) duno how long this kinda days can last tho =( haiz. yea. lets enjoy it for now.

BACK.

ok. im back but duno hw many actually comes. but well for the sake of blogging, im blogging=)
changed the blogskin, even tho its of the same colour as the previous 1 & the tagboard is still screwed, heck care tho.. gonna try doing up the tagboard tml or wad. =\

well went to work recently & think i kinda screwed up a couple of stuff but =\ too bad then, since i suck. lol.. IF I GET SACKED, I WUN BE SURPRISED. =(

yea. its ok tho. i tried, lOL i dun mind being a slackeer & sleep at home for20hrs perday oso lol. uh sudden urge to write blog cuz im rather fRee now & guess wad. my enlistment date is 12 jan 2008 =.= weird huh? ppl 11 jan if not april, im in 1 of the weirdest date.=.= well who cares, i cant do anything abt it anw.

well guess im gonna BLOg eVERYDAY if i get to touch the comp to update abt my lame life=\ dun wry, it will get interesting once in a while so ya, plz come see see when ever u are free =)


=.= u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u

happy bdae to mi.

=) its my birthday! hmm tho its over & few comes to this blog but. yah jus feel like updating for the future "me" to see.
let mi recall... kk its jus another normal day when i wake up & there is a sun. den my mother dragged mi to go choose a cake which she will not liike( equals to a cake which i will like) ya ya den hafta carry tt cake to WALK frm bPP back home=.= lol luckily the cake still look like a cake when i reach home =)
hmm so slacked a while at home & kept looking at my hp =( nobdy asked mi out =.=... ya den duno wad time.. a magical sms came.."hey happy birthday. wanna come sch?" LOl the 1st sms who asked mi out=.= kk so i went. den got 1 guy who haf muscles as big as his face came & gave mi a birthday bash~.~superRRR pain. guess i can still feel it now.=.= uh ya so after tt went KFC to eat. lol didn mind at all cuz kfc food tastes good. oh. ya so later they ask mi to look for a present. zz like i got the cheek to choose. dunno la. ya but after tt chose a watch.. quite EX and sry + thANKs alot to thEM! realli damn touched.. cuz its my last time to celebrate my bdae in uniform.. =(

ya so after tt i went home and ate tt cake. LOl ate ALOT of it and who cares. i dun mind having a 36inch tummy in future. haha.. yea. tt ends my pathetic bdae but im glad enuf~

Thank you all those who remembered! YOU forgot!=.=

sian.

sian. guess not many ppl are reading blogs or surfing net when the GREAT exam is coming.. lOl. real weird=.= prelims are coming.. i started studying but=.= oh well still cant do much questions.. now realli motivated to chiong for glorryyyy=.- i wish. lol im still failing my phy & chem.. duno how to catch up anw.=.=

yea yea improvement in mATHS LOL. I WISH IM A GENIUS. somethings i tot shld b ez in the end i cant do. damn tired and lazy during weekends.. w8. i jus remb smth.. i failed my GP terribly.=.= kkk lets start pratising.

My weekdays are pretty normal like any other usual boring college students, the only different thing i did was not to study. I tried to study but I feel that my mouth is the source of trouble. It always wanted to open and my voicebox tends to vibrate as much as usual during the night study program. I personally think that there is not much motivation to study in school for me & certainly less motivation to study at home. Can i create a seperate dimension so that i can study without distractions? No way. Alright i should stop talking about studying here since everyone else is talking about it. Lets talk about something more relaxing, say,.. i suppose there was not much interesting happenings in college these days anyway.

oh yea=.= there was this girl i keep seeing in my neighbourhood lOl. frm 2 weeks ago till now. saw her in NTUC when i was wif my bro. at 1st was wondering y i tot i see this face b4. den the nxt sch day, saw her on the way to sch. lOl =.= the nxt weekend, saw her at NTUC again. den i told my bro abt it..=.= he freaking ask mi to go get her HP no. =.= lame shit. of cuz i didn. no pt harming a young lady.. today. while i was buying dinner near my hse.. i saw her again=.= i pretend i didn see.. cuz i can predict wad my bro will sae later on.. he saw her den sae....

"oi oi its tt girl again..! dun hum ji go get her hP no.! " =.=
den i said "no interest."
den he reply "=.= u lousy shit humji and arrogant."
i kept silent.
"she jus rite for u. cute and not v chio. same pattern as u."
i reply " siao. no interest la. somemore i will look like a weirdo to do that"
den he sae " jus sae u humji. no need excuse."

=.= zZ he is total crap.=.= kk hope u destressed abit.. time to go back studY!!

jus another day

uh. its abt like erm 90+ days to the moSt impt exam in my life currently. and im still having the JUST ANOTHER DAY attitude-.- it sux. but i realli duno lah=.=.. hope i can catch up wif my studies and stop getting any shitty results... REALLY sick and tired of U. U. and U
yea. im leading a very happy happy happy life now=.= full of laughter and joy and some studying.. altho i still luv sleeping aLOt alot.
call mi a pig.. i dun mind. as long as i get at least 12 hrs of slp / week end.! heh heh. fun FUn.
yea yea lets study hard tgt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

detention 2

how lucky. i got my 2nd detention today.. zZ tot today there will b ppl staying back wif mi today but=\ nvm la its my problem not theirs.

hmm duno y as i get nearer to exams. i get slacker. i panic. but i get so tired everyday i needa slp by 10pm if not i will die the nxt day.. haiz not a realli gd day todae cuz some problems in sch lOL. nO fun no fun!

hmm gonna slp soon.. bbyE!

-blog for the sake of blogging=.=

detention~

=.= today is a hhorrrible day. hmm 1st thing, was really close to the sch gate when the pudge stopped us. lOL b4 tt jhui was still saying tt i shld try being late so tt i can hide away frm my CT cuz i missed the college day cuz of, STOMACHACHE! =.= was in serious painn but i doubt any1 wld believe mi=.=... yup so was late & tt teachers scan my card cuz my tie was wif smbdy=D
haha kk tts the 1st bad thing todae.. during maths class, ppl on my left & on my right chose to sit far away frm mi..=.= hmph. WHY?! m i THAT noisY?! =.= haiz nvm liddat i can do better anw. but, loniness is hORRIBLEEE=.= kk after tt, chem lesson.. i forgot to bring my notes=.= hmm. think the teacher saw & dun care or didn see cuz i look too innocent..=X
phy..=.= lend xh my notes den duno wad mysterious was toking bout..=.= SAD SAD SAD BAD. lOL.. rite.. so after tt was quite ok bah..not tt bad le.. only until 6pm.=.=
stupid detention wanna keep mi in sch till 8pm=.= _|_nvm den.. my "frens" left mi, 1 by 1..=.= in the end, it doesnt even matter.. cuz im all alone! hmm did some work & time flew past quite quickly bah.. not as bad as i expected it to be.
true masters must know loniness by name. =\ =\ guess the sign is clear enuf..

=/

money money money. makes the world goes round =D

really tight on $$ cuz of so many ppl having birthdays in this weeek =.- lol not blaming u... jus blaming myself for being too nice. haha kk wish every1 happy birthday.! =D

take that, i spent 30cents for like 2 consecutive days jus to save money =x. LOl guess wad i live on for these 2 days..? BREAD BROUGHT TO SCH FRM HOME! lol haven did tt since Psch but.. not bad actually =D seeing ppl eat those nice nice de thingy, den i jus drooOOLLL den eat my lousy bread... lol haiz realy lousy in my studies.. MUST BUCK UPpPppp

kk tts abt alll for todae & tml shld b a bz day =S

ps. i hate getting U's for my results >:(

ok

OOOOOOOOO

oooooo end of CHEM PAPER! only 1 last phy paper 1 & 2 left.. LOL
hope can pass all my h2.. =) but hope. is still hope.. =.- anw 1st things 1st.. my tagboard is below~ zz think this skin got problem.. tried to change the position for a few times, the board still die oso dun wanna go up=.-
so now i am damn bored cuz i wanna plae this game.. which i played a few yrs bac.. a great game but became pay to play.. BUT NOW, IT BECOME FREE TO PLAY! zZ!! i wanna return to play this game but=.- i forgot my ID & pw..=.= cant login.. damn sad..grr now see the screen shots all those den damn tempted again.. zzz oh well... lets see wad i can do=.=

yep yep jus now after chem paper went lot1 (again=.=) wif class ppl.. was eating long john & toking to ahmad & sebas abt some crap.. den i mentioned a certain "M.."word=.= guess it was quite a sensitive word? duh den some ppl stared at mi as if i murdered 10000 ppl in 1 nite =.= hai weird ppl.
after tt went walk ard (again=.=) as if we've nv been to lot1 before had fun! haha after tt they went movie den i gO HOME LO! kkkkk

tts all for now.. byBYE

friday

FRIDAY
o.o was planning for a 2nd relax session so i went sch at 2pm.. met zy at sch... lol tok cock wif him a while den waited for gz to come yup yup so after tt i did some work & REVEALED some dark secrets to ZANG.. (duno y i tell him anw) ya so i told him somethings which noBDY noes=.-
ah ah ah ah so after after tt he wanted to study so i went bac to zy & gz they all=D

ah so duno wad we tok abt ya jus loads of crap den we went to makan.. while GZ told us tt he cannot adventure tt day! cuz he wnna study! zzZz sian.. lOL anw he made a gd pt & oh well.. during dinner we kept on kp-ing him loL... zz den i started looking for alternatives since gz cant go..=.=

ahh sms-ed my BEST grp & they super steady =) since im the most unsteady among them =D wonderful! we went to junhui hse thoN! zz sad tho i ps-ed zy jus liddat.. didn realli told him tt i will ps him oso.. ahhhhh felt quite bad but.. ahh.. its over le.. yup yup so move on to nxt part!

part II: XH HSE
well had nth much to do cuz they gg thon later & so i went to xh hse 1st.. originaly planning to go mhao hse but... duno y seems tt xh hse seems more appealing to mi so.. i went! =D after i went.. i felt bad.. cuz his family like got some quarrel or wad.. & my presence made them felt weird.. zz bad experience.. but oh well after tt he played dota & i watched den we went to JH hse tgt!!

JH HSE
lol on the way there xh told mi some "DARRK "secrets which almost every1 knew..=.=but oh well his dark secrets are not worth mine.. so the deal was off LOL..... ya so after we reach jh hse, it was fun fun fun fun fun fun luff luff luff luff cuz of tt movie star super funnnny LOL.! played MANY MANY ROUNDS of bridge then looked at other ppl's frenster.. lOL funny experience too cuz it was like a bunch of weirdos looking & commenting super loads at other ppl's frenster=.= sad life but.. tts the way=.-

yup yup duno y time passed quite quickly so we went sch at abt 6 after mac=.- ah they wanted to study after 1 nite of no slp =.= crazy.. when we reach sch.. they all.. SLEPT... wanted mi to wake them up in 1/2 hr time.. but after 30min, i tried to wake them.. none woke up.. bleh so i did my own things. it was then the MOLE & the anti mosquito smokE attacK!
lol they smell smth smelly so they woke up & b4 we notice, we were surrounded by LOADS of smoke =.- lol suay.. & the mole keep staring at us.. damn uncomfortable feel.. damn was tired & PLAYED BRIDGE AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN! lol slept as soon as i reached hoME!

new post

arghh 2:17PM lOl dun wry.... managed to slp earlier ytd at ard 12+.. not realli into those nite owls thingy cuz i will get tired & will wake up at ard 12+pm the nxt day=.- lol hope i can change bac to my normal routine =D..
yup so ytd i tried to complete my maths revision package...hm.. i tried quite hard.. bringing out all my notes & stuff b4 i start doing..so do do do do.. flip flip flip.. some how.. I STILL CANNOT DO SOME OF THE VECTORS QN...=.= nvm.. i managed to somehow "complete" it anyway ( super many holes in btween) ahh den at nite i tried doing the integration part of the revision package.. GAH ANOTHER SUPER HARD TOPIC! i cant realli do even wif my notes & fomula list bside mi.. !!!! was reali pissed!!! INTEGRATION SUCKX!

ah so after bathing, i find tt my specs were abit too loose at the sides.. so i tried to adjust it tighter.. so i pushed the specs & "pak!" the thingy fell off =.= great! saved $$ for so long.. needa use it for specs now=.= holy good luck...


!! when will we haf another relax sessioN!! GZ!!

late

another night of late slping...=.= didn do much anw.. time jus went by like this like this like that like that.... boring weekends.. no studying.. no outing.. no nth.. zzz
hmm 7 days to midyrs.. =D thx loads.. all the best to every1.. lOL well if u are reading.. u WASTED ANOTHER 1 MINUTE

cant slp

cant slp. =.= ok jus in case the timing bcome wrong.. its 2:25am.. only. but well to mi.. im freaking crappy.. duno y i cant slp.. woke up tried to do abit of revision but stopped as fast as i can..=.= haiz.. i think im freaking thinking too much while i was trying to slp..

my thoughts.. secret!.. lOl suddenly felt like finding smbdy to VOMITTT EVERYTHING in my mind frm last time till now.. but..=.- oh well didn realli get the chance.. haiya i think im quite zi bi in a way bah=.- grr... yuppx so realli nth much to sae now.. =D

thanks loads for spending 1 minute reading this crappy entry=)