soul search.

yes. ive been wasting these few days not doing anything.
here i am, subconsciously, despite having a weary body, im not sleepy. hmm perhaps my subconsicious is stubbornly refusing to end my day jus liike that.
i was racking my brain for something to help mi kill time and then an idea struck me, yea i noe its no longer original but i went back to read my old CLASS BLOG.

for starters, the blog was meant for the class to share information and probably act as a space for every member in the class to probably also express how they feel abt any issues happening ard them. and yes, i created the blog for my class in jc... abt 5 yrs back? YEA...OMG ITS BEEN 5 YEARS.?!
oh wellls. i read thru the blog entries written by me and my classmates. ahhh brings back memoriess. once again, it kinda feels like ive transcended time and remembered all those minute details which would haf been forgotten. bahh as i read thru the posts, other than remembering the events which happened, i discovered smth interesting. smth which i hadnt noticed. i think i've really changed.

i remb why, i had more frens then than now. why, i felt tt i was very likeable. why, i hate myself so much now.

gahh. i guess i was a realli humourous funny and cute person then, wif a thinge of lively cheerful and amiable. haha i guess i exagerrated but, a little of all the above wouldnt be too generous alrite. wad happened to me, why is there a dark cloud hovering above my head and following wherever i go? why did u keep ur mouth shut and ur smile to urself.?! wad happened to all the humour which u were born wif and were once so proud of?! WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO U?! CHAOYI!

i couldnt answer myself. i didn noe wad caused the change. perhaps, all the things which happened? perhaps its jus part and parcel of growing up? i duno. i do not think i can find out. but yes this soul search. made me feel tt i acheived alittle smth today at least.
i looked thru my soul. i saw the person who had the same body as mi 5 yrs ago. i think i learnt a little today.

i will strive for the better. i can. i will =)



hahaha side note, this place is for me to write all my emo stuff. when im happy, i wun write it here, i wld tell every1 ard mi wif my mouth. spreading the joy i suppose? yea the place wher i pour my sorrows, where no1 other than me noes, here =) yea so if any1 is wondering why this person is forever emo nemo, tts the reason, cuz u are reading my blog, my personal archive of emotions.

another.

yet another day totally wasted. hmm tt jus proves how incompetent i am as a human, screwing up 1 interview and rejecting the other. just wad am i. wad do i think of myself. grrr am hating myself more and more. cuz i often regret wad i did like 10seconds later. but oh well tts me.

haha so an update of my life, basically sitting down there watchin some random videos which are totally not constructive at all. i noe im simply wasting my life but, i jus cant make myself do anything else. uh uh guess tts kinda bad... OKOK i will get my ass moving alright. i will do smth diff tml! i promise. haha

oh had a strange dream during my afternoon nap, i actually dreamt tt i was back in a BAND! hahaha i wonder wad i was in my dream, an alumni or member. haha but oh well interesting thing is i had a thought during the dream, i only remember that thought very clearly but nt the other details of the dream. i was thinking

"hey cy this is a dream u noe."
"yes i noe, but still, let me play tt intrument, let me perform b4 waking up ok."

oh my, i cant remb whether i actually performed, but i woke up soon after, with a smile on my face.

hahaha i guess tt is jus my brain trying to remb the times when i had fun and am actually enjoying myself. to escape this boring life for a while, a short break i would call it.=)

haha okok i guess tts it for nw. be back soon!

another day flew past

hmm.. rotting my flesh away.

its been. erm almost 2 weeks? and im still doing nth. outings? nope. didn meet up wif many ppl. (dun haf many ppl to meet anw.) job? nope. no employers called me at all. wonder wads wrong wif them but.. ohhh welll. screw this.

grahh no inspiration to write much at this moment. so... erm tts it for nw=)

the end of things.

yay.? somehow my exams ended and im now back into this process of searching for jobs + waiting for employers' call + waiting for frens to ask me out + rotting my ass at home. ahh.. quite a bad feeling. its gd to be able to rot at home but, well the thought of having to search for job is reallllllllll shity=.= facing those ppl checking the hell outta u and putting on this fake smile plus the fake professionalism. =/ one word -> troublesome

if only.. if only. haha i wouldnt mind slackin chillin the shit outta my life for now but. yup. tts life time to put on my smile and professionalism and get out of my hse searching for the $$$$$.

hope i wun take too long to find a job this time! gg. wish mi luck alrite. to erm, whoever haha lOl!

lalala

lalala in the rain. haha went cycling to pass smth to my fren, and it rained on my way back =.=. prolly coz of the pebble tossed into the pond a few days back, unconsciously, i went back to the place i liked so much haha. cuz tts the only memory i had wif =/. oh wells lalala in the rain feels good. its so much better than missing =/. gahhh went back home drenched. zz luckily i didn fall sick frm tt so, its cool. ermm. other than tt, life's been monotonous. and haf i mentioned abt it? passed pBF.. yay! barely, but im happy jus to be able to pass.! awww gotta study hard man chaoyi, if nt ur life's not gonna get pass 2011. hai. wadever ok? do work hard now! there are many things waiting for u after ur exams~! go go, fight! alright alright byebye.! for now. yea the rain, i still like it so much. haha

tuesday. with a twist.

hahaha! im back, wif a hmm... wad to say, nt realli good mood~ well well lifes been a bitch but im still hangin on since nth REAL bad happened haha. mm yea officially confined myself for the month till exams are over. hope it helps! good news! i got 70 points for my bloody stats 1 prelims. YAY! higher (much) than my expectations. but i somehow feel tt its untrue cuz i certainly dun deserve it=/ the marker was too lenient or rather, probably semi- blind? haha well but the bad news is tt i got 12 marks for my stats 2.=/ pretty or rather mUCH LOWER THAN EXPECTED? oh well didn feel much but lalala. ehh and as for the main reason that im back here is.. cuz of a stone was cast into a peaceful pond water this morning. hahaha if u noe wad it means. yea i checked my hp when i woke up, "1msg recieved" haha wth. lol wasnt expecting much and as i realized who the sender is, i was SHOCKED!! plus surprised plus wadever, haha i was thinking "wad the hell. holy mama."=.= gg haha well its her. even tho i intentionally didn tell her the fact tt i changed my hp no. but oh well. she found my no. nonetheless. hmm its been 2 yrs i guess? yup, the dumb and stupid mi kept telling myself to dun imagine things, but OH WELL, im still me, imagining all the impossible scenerios. LOL well well at least im really happy for a few hours. but it all ended in total disappointment. hahaha details? jus asking smth which is totally redundant.=/ the last msg frm me was "...see u if i see u=/" and the msg from u was "i dont think i will ever see u but, see you." hahahahaha kinda sad but kinda, well i cant find the word yet, i will write it down if i ever realize how exactly im feeling. lala.

eventful april fool

yo. actually nth much happened but jus felt like updating more frequently haha.

gonna update bout ytd and today.

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hmm for some reason i somehow found myself back at PJC... again=.=!! for a diff purpose this time; to study. haha well well long story abt how i ended up inside again but well well, quite a bad trip back as the feeling is diff this time ard, and gah.=.= nth exciting happened.
felt like an alien invading the earth, i definitely dont belong there anymore, not matter how my mouth likes to brag abt my eternal youth nonsense, age alrdy caught up to me, im old.

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haha suppose to meet wif fren for study session, but he suddenly told me tt he met an accident=.= tot it was an april fool's joke but omg its real after all. GG! but luckily he is fine. =x eh srsly nth much to say now. no mood. no feeling. hahahahaha blah blah cya again soon ba.

Yesterday =)

yay im back. haha rather early eh? hahah oh well a good place to practice writing in english(a little) and well, to jot down parts and parcel of my life in case i forget it in future. so, why not?! haha went for a great dinner cuz it my bro's treat =) due to the fact tt he received wadever bonus and wow! uh love the dinner and i feel tt he is great. err frm the bottom of my heart cuz, if i get a bonus, i dun think i will buy dinner for the family, i will perhaps get a few more shirts or shoes or go club and prolly gif a lil $$ to my mum or wad. haha oh well thanks loads for the meal! Go-chiso-osama deshita!

ya wadever, im trying to learn jap so pardon mi if u see some weird words here and there. hahahahaha ok so after the sumptuous meal, went home to bathe and change and off i went to meet up wif the usual gang. haha as always, so mighty happy when im wif them! haha and i dun care if we were to go our seperate ways in future, im jus happy that we were so close once. haha well well cherish the present yea? who noes wad will happen in future. dun take it for granted tt they will always be there wif u. haha quoted frm some drama=x ahh went to some prata shop to eat and as usual talk cock and waste time. got a couple of cans of beer to chill at west coast park after tt, well, i cant remember the gist of the topics we talk abt but, we had fun and laughter throughout so i dun think it matters ya? haha quite a fun day and i almost forgot tt i haf a major exam in a month time! LOL ya la ya la ok ok im gg back to study ok? byE!

im happy.

yes. im back to this wall talking to myself again. hahaha i will take it as a place for me to rant wadever and however i wanted to! well cuz i dun suppose any1 can handle all of my thoughts and strange way of thinking. thus, yea, im only showing this side of mi to you. i mean me. haha wel well guess wad, even i dun understand myself very well, i thought tt im some1 wif mild temper, but recently i realized tt tts nt the case cuz i kinda get irritated rather easily by recalling all the incidents which happened previously. there are so much more to myself which i dont understand.

So, perhaps, by keeping some evidence of my true feelings here, one day, when i come back to piece all of them together, i will noe myself better. and perhaps, if i ever find some1 who wish to noe more about me, and i feel comfortable about showing her the whole of me, i will gif her the key to this pandora's box , this time capsule, this archive of myself.( or wadever name u call it) =) hope tt day will come soon! hahaha

oh i was trying to archive this blog in my own PC since im nt sure when this website might become.. u noe, unpopular and gets shut down. hahaha thus having a backup shld be good! =0 eh chaoyi, the archive is in "C:\CY folder\phone\pic\sec sch Pictures\me\blog" in case u forget where u put it HAHA!

kk update on my life now. hmm 1 word =) uncertainty. yea. the main exams coming in 1 month's time, but im still nt in the mood to study. why? i wish i noe the real answer. but right now, my speculations are "lack of drive" mm. nth much distracting me now except for myself. prolly tts also the reason why im distracted. haha if u get wad i mean. distracted cuz there is nth to distract me. HAHA. yea boring life. which means that i haf no goal in mind and it means tt dere is nth to push mi forward!.. gRRRrr but i cannot fail. its not a shldnt fail, or must not fail. its CANNOT FAIL. cuz if i fail, i think my story wld end haha.

frens ard mi found their 1st love. =) happy for them, sad for myself haha i cant imagine wad its like to haf some1 who loves mi as much as i love her. grr jus tt no 1 is appearing in my life right now. wad a sad truth. ZZzz. im getting kind of impatient now.. srsly. my first love. whoever whereever u are. can u come to me like noW?! okok, it wld be kinda strange if u realli come to me now.. but ya come to me soon ok? ya i swear i will love u more than u love me. hahahahah! i will pour my 22years of collected love into U! BEWARE NOW!!! hahahaha wadever sounds despo. but well well jus trying to put a few drops of humour into this dumb and lame blog post. =x yea yea tts it for today!

haha.

okay. been down for a while and now im back up. haha who says guys wont feel emotional from time to time. the main thing is to be able to climb back up rite away. those who are able to say things like "Nth can bring me down! nth can make me sad. nth will make me cry" are jus blinded by their lame ass male ego and trying to brag the shit out of themselves to make them feel superior. well well. if u are realli like how u described urself as, u are either a moron or some1 who jus havent tasted failure.

uh ok so had fun these few days and i seem to be lazy to jot down memories anywher. errr kinda dumb as i drank quite a lil bit and got a bit tipsy ON MY OWN.=.= lol drinking by myself is kinda lame but oh well. tts my chu xi nite. and the whole of chu 1 im simply sleeping away cuz im kinda having a rather bad hangover=.= lol

okok so went jw hse to play. haha won a lil $$ and got my mood high uP! hahaa uh somehow celebrated Thyechuan's bday by buying a small cake and getting a real lousy gift. feels real guilty as i didn realli did my best. can see frm his face he aint real happy and im real sure tt if tts wad my frens gif me, i will kill them. haha. damned. i hope i dont get this kinda treatment this yr ok? will be damn sad. haha

as for today, went to study but i totally cant get the mood.=.= probably bcoz im studying pBF=.= screwed up subject. wadever man. haha kinda wasted the whole of today but. yes. plz go and study later ok? lol waiting for the stupid video to convert finish.. ZZZ kkkkkkkkkkkkkk i go do smth else first den.

Fallen.

hmmm. its jan 26, 2011, 6:40 am now. okay a rather saddening moment for me. argh the story goes like this. =)

err, kinda kena "nominated" ( a better word would be sabo-ed) to be the nxt organizer of the OG outing. its nt the first time im organizing an outing and if it is wif my og, i guess it wld be ez, as in easier? cuz guys are rather reluctant to do some activities w/o girls. yup, so i went ahead and created the event page on Fb~! haha after a few days, onli 3 ppl responded? so i sent a msg to the rest and reminded them to respond. LOL. then to my SURPRISE, ( unpleasant) ok will move straight to the final statistics, 9 not attending, 4 awaiting, 2 mayb 6 attending. LIKE. YEA. u noe the 3 words to use, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ !?! gG! lol i didn noe my popularity was, THIS LOW U NOE? lol. den i start to think back, err i think i can recall a couple of ppl who avoids mi ( if im nt wrong) and plus this, omg?! LOl the lovable and popular CY fell! AM I LIKE HATED NOW?! hahahaha gosh, so i start to think back....dun remb doing much evil stuff.. a lil here and there but arghhh.. oh well. this sux. and i hope im wrong this time around. haiz............

haha i admit, the event was rather sloppily planned and ive alrdy made adjustments! so ok. hope things get better. arghh. damn this shit~! jus when i thought my life is gonna get better cuz i won $$ at Mahjong. lOL

uh and i used to be hearing so much of i haf good popularity and im popular among my frens, and now, somehow, some1 commented that im not popular at all, instead, my popularity is, POOR!?
( REN YUAN BU HAO?!) GG SIA!

HEY CHAOYI OF THE FUTURE, TELL ME IM WRONG WHEN U READ THIS NXT TIME OK? PLEASE?! AND REMB TO POINT TT GUY A MIDDLE FINGER IF U REALISE TT HE IS TALKING BULLSHIT OK?!

tts abt all nth much happenings bye.

yo wassup.

Hi. im back. with a lighter spirit this time around.
haha was in a nt so good mood these few days cuz of the lack of vitamin frens. well well, guess they are all bz i suppose. looking at all of their fb updates, kinda jealous tt they are having a whale of a time while im still trapped in this boring and monotonous black and white world of my own. welll well, things will get better i suppose. soon? No matter. jus one of the blue moon nights when i cant sleep and got loads of things running through my mind. No matter, i suppose all of them got straightened out after all. haha kinda love my optimism now lol

well wads happened these few days, uh stayed home and tried to study but i didn realli manage to put much things into my mind. Zzzz wads more, cant slp for no bloody reason. strangely, wanted to update many things previously but now i 4got wad i wanted to type so, hmm ill jus randomly crap my way thru den. living kind of like a secluded life where im jus with me, myself and chaoyi. lOL i hope i will nt become mentally unstable after some time.. =/ argh. wadever, if i happen to become mentally unstable, this sentence is for me to wake up my bloody idea and snap back to normal "CHAOYI WAKE THE SHIT UP MAN! U ARE NT ALONE! GO BLOODY FIND UR FREN TO CHAT AND STAY NORMAL CAN?!"

=.= siann crapping my way through. OH I rembed wad i wanna say, k so its like a couple of my frens are moving on with their lives quite well and i think they are kinda like getting their love life balanced out soon. hmm makes me wonder, wad the hell was i doing? wads my bloody problem.?! in fact, i thought they had problems.. but i guess it turned out tt im most likely be the only 1 with a hell lot of problems, cuz yea, im far frm a r/s. ZZZ gg sia. i hope my frens wun think tt im abnormal=.=
yes. i noe its strange, but i can jus say, im unlucky! i havent been able to meet any1 i like or any1 who showed any slight possibility of liking me ok?! ZZzz im jus nt good enuf yet.! umm so yes, i will try my ultima best to buck up. be more frenly! be more approachable=.= ok yes yes. i will drop tt "im gd looking/ cute or wadever bhb joke" guess its jus nt suitable for me=/ and i will cont to act like a clown ok? prolly things might work out better that way.

a clown will stay as a clown, no matter how he tries to dress up or act gentlemanly, he will nv bcome a prince charming. he will jus look more like a failed clown.
-chaoyi

haha wise words to serve as a reminder to myself=.= haiz.. ok! a new start! a positive mindset to go! tts it for now~

hahaha emo emo.

yea chaoyi. im talking to u onli when im feeling unhappy. when i am happy, i wldn be writing to u. haha!

hmm where do i start, okok. i shall talk abt the time capsule which i took a few days back. due to unexpected circumstances, i somehow decided to go back to the cold storage ffdc for a little walk due to my dear ex-colleague( cuz he suddenly felt like gg back). i tot to myself, "hmm nt a bad idea, nth to do anyway" even tho i felt quite ridiculous as ive only worked there for like, 3 mths? and the bonds i had dere aint realli deep. oh well, might as well. haha
YUP. so i went back dere, seeing how some things changed and somethings that nv changed.its jus like so recent when i was still working there. the trip back was the key to a locked chamber of memories which i misplaced. memories jus keep flashing back and i remembered so many things which happened previously. ahh fond memories, events which were filled with joy and laughter. much hardwork and boredom. my brain is starting to fail me after all, even with all the talk abt immortality. LOL! yea i guess as more memories start filling up my mind, older, non-impt info jus get deleted or chucked away in dark corners and locked up. haf to admit, im realli getting old.

cant realli bear to leave after stepping in there, unexpectedly. hanged ard till they started chasing me away. gosh. wad happened to me. tts so not me! oh well, kinda happy tt my soul actually travelled thru time to a 10over mths back and yea! nt tt bad of experience=)

uhh den i went back to PIONEER JUNIOR COLLEGE on friday. wad the hell rite? yea. u were this crazy. argh another place full of fond memories, full of things which i like. ULTIMATE JOY, LAUGHTER AND HAPPINESS. rejection and disappointment... to a small extent. arhh how long has it been...3 full years. w/o any expectation of any1 remembering me, i went back, with the sole intent of feeding my soul wif fond memories wif my ex-classmates. those were the days, which i claimed to be my happiest days, the point of my life wher i grew up alot. the days, wher i met impt frens. gah! the tot of it jus spurns my hot blood.
ah as i was saying, visited.. nono disturbed some juniors in their normal routine life. haha kinda strange to see some1 who graduated for more than 3 yrs still coming back. i placed myself in their shoes as well. i wldn welcome them. AT ALL. haha some teachers who taught me still remb me. surprised and glad! tts when my teacher told me abt a couple of my pranks and retarded stuff i did when i was younger, haha! i dont remb doing them but, u wldn noe how it feels to hear abt how other ppl talk abt urself as tho she is nt talking abt u. cuz u dun remb doing them after all ( if u get wad i mean chaoyi.) well well love pjc to the ultima max.srsly.

probably becuz im lonely and very empty at this point of time. tts y im starting to find back the memories of myself when i wasnt this lonely, this empty. trying to feel up the void inside u see. argh! dont think u got it but. ohwell. jus remb this, chaoyi, u are bloody lonely and empty at this point of time! wondering which point? sep2010 - jan2011. and its still going on. haha hope u are much better at the time u are reading this. emptiness and loneliness, quoted frm a strange person who somehow put feelings into these 2 words. ya. chaoyi, u were a loser. i am a loser. BUT I WILL WIN. SOON.
okok tts abt all for now. craves for love to come soon. love. love love. i wish i noe wad it is. =/ used to believe tt i am nt ignorant when it comes to love. well well i guess i really am ignorant.GRRR. NO MATTER, keep fighting! dont gif up! the moment u gif up on urself, the whole world gives up on you! FIGHTER GO!

MORe updatess~

ok...update again.. errm unemployed AGAIN. i tot by starting to look for jobs b4 i get unemployed will shorten my unemployment period but. obviously tts not the case\= oh well can onli pray tt my employer will call me soon.

take note.. its 1st june. my unluckiness is still clinging on. make sure tt u ( chaoyi) remb to update when u feel tt ur luck changed =)
- lost $30 in mj (zz u may think its cuz of my poor skills. but i still seriously feel tt its unluckiness.. SERIOUSLY. each time i see the 13tiles i get, i noe my good fren [god of suay] is wif me. not 4geting the tiles i get each turn.. owns as well)
- every1 else got a stable if not at least a job they like while i got a job tt is onli 1mth contract.. (after one and a 1/2 mths of search, and now im unemployed for 2 weeks.. again.)

hmm however, we shld be able to count our blessings in order to be happy,
im slacking so much at home and wasting my life away! its a blessing! <- as in seriously.

oh btw this period is also a pang seh period, why? cuz alot of ppl last min ps me..(its ok...serious) or, every1 is jus rejecting my attempts to meet up.(its screwed up... but i can endure..) WORST THING IS, THEY DAO ME!. nv reply at all! WAD AN ASSHOLE. i seriously hope, bad karma will find them. sERIOUSLY. yes, I AM CURSING THEM. CURSE CURSE CURSE. NXT TIME U SMS UR FREN, THEY WUN REPLY U.! bad karma will find u like how it found me. lol

time to reflect, yes, i used to dao ppl's sms last time and now i reaped wad i sow. =/ (i duno if its true but tts wad i assumed it is..) so, now im doing loads of good deeds so tt i can get my GOOD KARMA. =D i duno how long i will haf to do these good deeds in order to see a of hope, but, im so going to endure through it. I CAN DO IT.

o.o

hmm. updates.. am jobless for 2 weeks again.=/ weird.. why izzit tt ppl can find good jobs and why not me. argh. lazy to ponder abt such lame facts.. so cheer up and be happy!



ok, so..lets see.. wads happy for me.. erm.. staying home and sleep? haha its a plain and simple form of happiness tt is often taken for granted. a simple and relaxed life w/o any worries.. tts happiness.

lol but well well am really looking forward to having weird happenings tt can spark me up a little.. since ive been staying home for quite a while. ZZzz

calendar.

ohh looking at the calendar and reading those "wise words" from "wise people".. hmm the phrase for the month of MAY is "The time to be happy is now. The way to be happy is to make others so. - Robert Ingersoll" haha kinda interesting and rather true.. hmm after reading this.. im rather determined to MAKE OTHERS HAPPY! i wonder if i will be happy as well! so. yea. LETS do it!

June -> "peace begins with a smile - Mother Teresa"
July -> " Don't be afraid of the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it, you can make it so. - Belva davis
Aug -> =.= forget it... its not good haha
Sep -> "If you are lucky enough to find a way of life you love, you have to find the courage to live it" - John Irving
Oct -> "All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them" - Walt Disney
Nov -> "In dreams begins responsibility" - William Butler Yeats
Dec - > "There is only one happiness in life, to love and to be loved" - George Sand
Jan -> "The language of friendship is not words but meanings. It is an intelligence about language." - Henry David Thoreau
Feb -> Happiness is not something you postpone for the future, it is something you design for the present" - Jim Rohn
March -> A friend is someone who reaches for your hand, but touches your heart.- Kathleen Grove

hmm see which of them touches ur heart and try to apply them in reality!! cya for now.... needa go toilet=/

things+age.

lol. life is great! seriously=)

so ytd is mother's day.. so.. brought my mum out for MOF=/ haha im poor, so dun compare thx. went to tour ard and went home after a few hours hanging there.. kk so here comes the interesting part =) according to my bro. we board 307 and i was lucky to find 2 seats for my bro & i, (mum sat smwher else). i sat down and looked up, omg, my bro is so far behind mi, den there is this rather, rather... not very lean female who sat beside mi. i looked at my bro and he gave a controlled laughter. so, oh well i dun realli care...so throughout the journey, i didn realli get to sit comfortably becoz tt female took up a rather significant amount of space and ohh my, seriously.. im totally fine wif it.
kk so it was raining heavily when we reached our stop. ->(there is a small side story but i dun really wanna write it down here.)<- My mother had an umbrella so she went the unsheltered way bcoz she will haf to go through a flight of stairs if she wants to go from the sheltered walkway ( she hates stairs) . my bro and i took the sheltered walkway as we do not haf umbrealla. "seriously what is she tinking abt=.= its jus a flight of stairs." i told my bro. jus right after i finish the sentence, i slipped and slided down the flight of stairs. =) erm its literally SLIDE down.. wif my ass. as in can u imagine playing a slide in a playground but the slide is substituted wif stairs. so my ass went "bump..!bump..!bump..!bump..!.... BUMP!" until i reached the ground level. lOL. my specs flew and my slippers came off as well. i ended wif a sitting position and i laughed out loud. my bro luffed as well. den this middle-aged couple came to me and asked if im ok. omg. its like the ultimate disgrace. i told them tt im fine and i picked up and left.. laughing. tts when my bro told mi, "wow. ur life is realli very exciting. first u got squeezed by a *quote* FAT girl *unquote* den u slip and fell down the stairs. it jus like a series of unfortunate events!" haha i luffed and tot to myself.."tts my luck. wads new."

yup. so tts the interesting weekend nt forgetting being PS-ed by 2 frens simultaneously and my bum hurts =). OH. i wore a white shorts when i slipped and fell down the stairs.=) how lucky.

kk its another chapter frm here after..
as usual i went to work and had the routine life.. i ran into a colleague in the toilet & we had a casual chat.. he asked me "u jus finished poly? waiting for army? or are u still studying in poly". lol den i told him, i finished army.=) as usual.. tt stunned reaction came=/ "uh?! u finished army alrdy ah." lol oh well nt the first guy anw. similar conversations happened last fri as well. hmm guess i m realli very acquainted with the word "poly". so, mayb i'll just claim tt im still studying in poly in future then. =) to reduce the amt of shock tt these ppl will experience.

so.. mayb a few points to check whether u are realli old.(in the heart)
- You no longer feel angry when ppl gave a younger guess to ur age.
- You read ur own blog entries from the past and u tot "omg?! was i like that?!"
- You saw "Students special" on fast-food restaurants and u cldnt figure out whether u get the promotion or not.
- You saw JC ppl in uniform talking loudly and u tot to urself "=.= kids."
- You look at guys wif a very short hairdo wif slope and black framed specs wif polo-tee, jeans, and a green colour backpack and u will exclaim "wah sian..nxt ICT shld be coming soon...=.="
- You see ppl wearing green jockey cap + uniform + green backpack + clean shaven hair + black framed specs and u will EXCLAIM "eew. cao RE***IT.!"
- You no longer find the need to say tt ppl are childish.
- You start to wry wad car to buy.
- You start to plan wad age to marry, how many kids to haf, where to go for honeymoon, who u are gg invite to be ur bestman.
- You feel tt $2 notes are nt realli useful. 10cent coins can be thrown onto the floor.(mayb $1 coins too)
- $1.50 chicken rice is a myth.
- drink ah? drink lo.. instead of "Drink ah?! steady steady! where?! drink wad?!"

and the list goes ON and oN! haha. this phase of my life is when i feel tt im old. but in actual fact, not really.. hmm oh well. a very complexed phase of life. am still young for the challenges ahead!

bleh. rather long entry. so.. "gotta enDx HerE lex WoRx. SeEx yAx veRyx sOooONx~!"

=.= haha am jus bored at work.

mmhmm.

cont.

Holy cow. i really was an angry kid.=) hahahaha super joke!
ok... i'll continue the update...
3/5
ahh felt a little satisfaction after realizing my plan(gg explore singapore). even tho its nt really of much fun but still. yes.
o.o after tt i went to meet my family for a nice dinner @ sunshine place. bro's treat for mother day, the zi cha stall is real good. shld try it out if u are loooking for a place to eat. ok went for dessert at xinwang yew tee point.

lol the i ordered grass jelly wif sago snow ice( good memory =) ) and my bro ordered some mango ice thingy. den the staff said tt the serving will be rather big and its best to share it. but i told my bro "no problem, im ard." den she luffed and said "oh u didn haf ur dinner huh, its really big leh.. u sure u can?" lol. i SERIOUSLY cannot take it when ppl taunt me or doubt my words.. burning wif pride, i said, "nvm jus come i can finish 1"
lol & so it came. mine was HUGE. and my bro's was HUGE-R( as in bigger). & he was like "oh, its realli big.. u sure u can anot?" zZZ i seriously hate it when ppl look down on mi or doubt my words. lol. so i began eating & eating & eating. wow it took mi some effort to finish mine, and my bro finished like ard... 1/2 of his thingy after i finished mine. so, i took his and poured into my bowl. & i kept on eating. lol.
after some time, i FINALLY finished everything and was rather, very satisfied with myself. lOL kinda dumb...isnt it? but oh well. anw, i realized tt actually its true tt u feel discomfort in the stomach when u ate too much ice.
=.=i had a stomach ache after tt lol & still have it till ytd. LOL it sucks but.. for the pride... its.. worth it=)

4/5
OH. back to work..bad start of the day when i realized i didn bring my key card when i was abt to reach the bus stop..ran back home to search for it to no avail..=.=oh well, missed the bus and was sweating profusely..=.= tt is seriously the ulti combi to spoil my mood.

aww was late and i cannot go in the office since i dun haf the key.. waited outside till somebody else come out den i sprinted to hold the door.. LOL=.= VERY.. UNSIGHTLY. aww reached my desk & realized i left the key card in my office=.= ohhh well...super boring.. as usual.. am seriously gonna die of boredom sooner or later..=.= read my blog archives from my JC days similarly i felt "WOW" again=). hmm was lost in my own memories until its ard 11+ (notice: i red my blog from 9am till 11++am) until my subconscious reminded me tt i am working! so, was abt to ask if there is anything for me to do den i turned to my left, i saw my colleague's screen.."Facebook"... den i turned to my right, i saw "Stylish outfit for the season" on the other colleague's screen, so.. "oh." i turned back to my screen and continued with my bejeweled.=)
i switched btween bejeweled..facebook..hotmail..etc till its 530pm.=/ the day was very.. lame.
zzzzz=.=


side note-> have u ever heard an Angmoh talking in real life? do u find it funny? i wonder why i realli feel like luffing out whenever there is an angmoh talking near me. the way they talk.. is jus... strangely..funny.

30/4, 3/5, 4/5

well jus some routine updates.

30/4
mm attempted to organize an outing for all the ex and current scorpion company instructors. its been quite a while since we last got tgt and i really wish tt it will be a really enjoyable and memorable get together session.. have been researching on wat to do and where to go for a couple of days but well... kinda got owned on the actual day itself as NTH.. absolutely NTH went according to plan... the place which i wanted to dine at... the after dinner activities.. all.. buang!

guess i jus sucked @ organizing things.=.=

ended up eating at KFC and playing LAN. wow wad a gathering. haha hmmm but good thing is we still managed to see that every1 is getting on well. so.. shldn be complaining tt much.

3/5
lol its a monday and the sat b4 was labour day. and so as usual, i left for work in the morning.. "hmm the bus seems to be having less passengers today.." i tot to myself.. "probably bcoz the schools are havin holidays"

i sensed tt smth is amiss when the bus reached the destination earlier than expected( due to less traffic tt day) and the office building itself seems rather... quiet. loL den i tot to myself "it cant be tt today is holiday bah... y nbdy tell me...." so.. i went up to my office and peeped in through the doors

"OH WOW. ITS TOTALLY EMPTY."

haha i wasnt angry tho, in fact im VERY happy tt i do not have to work! =) so, i smiled and left tt place... TO BREAKFAST! haha tts been my dream since a while ago... to have mac breakfast! =)

lol so i happily bought the hotcake meal & asked ppl to come out.

Qn: Why not just go home? Lame.
Ans: Cuz tt morning itself my mum asked mi, " u today got work not?" den i told her " shld be haf.. cuz nbdy say dun haf". den she answered, "even if dun have u better dun come home la. u at home so noisy and lazy, things anyhow throw duno how to put back"
=.= SO. i didn go home.

kk so got daniel out & went on our exploring trip. the 1st and i hope not the last expedition to locate new & fun places to hang out. Well brief bkgrd on tt, i was hoping to get a grp of 3 and go visit all random places in singapore to locate new & fun & fresh locations to haf fun during weekends. Hope tt i will really be able to locate new places & have fun along the way tho.

well, its hard to get ppl to take part, cuz its almost like walking ard aimlessly. BUT. it is this kind of walking ard aimlessly, tt new places will be located!

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So, if u are
-Young and bubbly,
-with an outgoing personality and
-Possess a pleasant and cheerful disposition

please email your detailed resume with photo attached to caoyi_36@hotmail.com to arrange for an interview & join this expedition!
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haha oh well explore AMK & bishan tt day and hmm cant realli say its good but.. nt too bad tho!

guess its rather long so.. ill stop for now.. still some stuff haven put in but will update again soon.=)