Bachelors'

Had a bachelors' party last night. Supposingly. Lol cuz I don't rly noe what a bachelors' party shld be like but i think tt it shld include some alcohol and stuff so I think... Yup we had a bachelors' party last night.

Alcohol is rly smth tt helps bond ppl closer. Tts wad I think, tts prolly the answer I've been searching for. Under the influence of alcohol and dim lights, ppl become more truthful, ppl become more friendly and open, removing all the false pretense they put up day in day out. Secrets will be told, and we wld laugh at the tiniest thing. I guess generally ppl become happier after drinking but of cuz, the cost of it is to haf a hangover the next day and prolly puking ur guts out.

Well I hope everyone had fun. Especially to my very close fren who's getting married. Taking tt step forward and becoming a husband is smth I think a lot of ppl don't haf the courage for. Tt amt of responsibility tt comes along with it is unimaginable I guess. Like promising smbdy tt "yea I'm gon take care of u forever". Jus thinking abt it is giving me the creeps lol. K fine to be fair, it's nt like I didn haf tt mentality before but... U noe, sometimes it's q hard to follow through with tt decision. Like after a few years, won't u look at those ppl who's not married having helluva fun but u having to go home and u noe, take care of tt fking crying baby. Yup it will be worth it but.. Of cuz there shld be moments whereby u will go like "fk this.. I shldnt haf gotten married"

Still... I'm glad tt I got to send him off. Hahaha. This is it. Gdbye freedom for him. Hello to the nxt stage of life.

Well on the other hand.. I'm still deep in the sea of freedom and relaxation. I noe I'm so gonna pay a price of these freedom I'm enjoying now but, I'll.. See how it goes. Ill yea. Haha.

Letting go.
Now tt I think I'm pretty much close to the truth. Perhaps it's rly time to let it go. Just another yesterday's idea.
The last goodbye tt is said by my heart. Will nv reach ur ears but at least, it reached my brain. And I shld be able to move on from tt spot sincerely frm nw on. No sorrow, no more emotions.

Why. How.

So why did I fall in love with drinking. Err tracing back to the beginning... It was... When... I was....18.? And den all those social gatherings tt I haf to go always somehow happen to involve alcohol made me not mind drinking it. I guess I evolved further when I was in uni. Heh.

Lols when asked abt wad my interests and hobbies were.. I don't think I can gif a gd answer. Lol cuz I don't play soccer, I don't play basketball, k I don't play any sports, and I don't do anything in particular. LOL jus sleeping and breathing and prolly doing some studying. Perhaps a boring life but.... Well tts how I liked it:) too bad abt tt heh.

I rly rly gonna leave soon. Hahaha. Like soon cuz.. Well. I've gotta set my priorities well. Wasting anymore time wldve been.. Pretty bad. So, yea I'll.. Leave. Soon.

Heh. Can't fall asleep again-__- it's 3am btw and I have to wake up at 6. Damn it all.
But well managed to grab a line outta a song tts pretty interesting. Heh.

 "So please. This is my last favour. If you ever run into me, will u please smile at me, who can't forget you?"
Such a.. Sad sentence lols. But ok tt will b my message for today.:)

Close far.

It felt tt ure still closeby and I can reach u if I jus extended my arm. But I realised, no tts nt true. All I see is jus an illusion. Ure alrdy long gone. In a place far, far away. Tt sense of familiarity shldve disappeared by nw. If we ever meet again, we will be probably strangers. Or merely hi-bye. But well it's nt like i didn try, so I guess I don't haf any regrets. Tho the chances are slim, if we ever haf the chance to get in contact again, I hope I wldve alr became a better man. But even if we don't ever contact each other, I guess, it's fine too. I suppose all these sticky past will be gone soon anw. As usual, I'll live so it's fine.

Oh yay. Ok. And lols I actually don't haf much time to entertain, ok I don't wanna spend anytime entertaining anyone who's not worth entertaining. Sry bout tt. I ain't the friendly type to begin with. Ok mayb I was but now, I'm definitely not. So unless u gif me a good reason tt I shld be nice to u and entertain u, yea. I'm jus gon reply only when I felt like it.

Pretty much sinking into my freee life. But well, I can't say tt I hate it. Fine I'll climb out of it soon la. Not much money left anw. Lols

Drinking 2.

Went for steamboat at mhao hse today, was originally pretty anxious abt hw they will grill me bout u noe, my job and shit which is fking annoying, it.. Didn rly happen luckily. Heh. So even tho I lost $10 in gambling, I felt tt it's pretty ok too. It was fun. I rly suppose tt this cld be one of our last gathering whereby we can enjoy so freely tgt. Well since every single one of us is abt to u noe, step into the society and... Work?!

Ah. Those times were fun but... When the time comes, we haf to grow regardless of how reluctant we are. And yes I've alrdy reached the limit of my welcome( to stay home and rot) it's perhaps... Time for me to embrace my new world too. Sigh.. Cy.. Let's go

Concern

Much of me still remained there. There are times wher I felt rly lonely and jus hoped to haf some1, just anyone to be wif me. But I knew, it wld come at a cost. Like, if u need someone to be wif u when u need them, u must be prepared to be wif them when they need u too. The law of equivalent trade haha. that it itself... Could be too much of a hassle since I haf my own goals, targets or Wadever tt I wanna meet. Sparing my extra time on those ppl wld pretty much be a waste of time.

Though I'm pretty much wasting time playing games and slacking anw, but to me it's time well spent since I'm jus using it on myself u see. But.. Ok i hope it's fine Hahha as in I hope this kind of mentality is still acceptable by the social norms. Well someone once said tt I looked like I don't rly care abt things regarding relationships.? Tts so very wrong. I'm mega concerned, it's jus tt I didn wan to even waste my time on a 2nd glance for female human tt is most likely an unsuitable candidate, like mayb too pretty or...too not pretty.  Teh heh. If someone who qualifies to be my ideal partner appears i wld definitely be more proactive abt it. Hahaha. K exaggerated but ya, as of now I'm just trying to put myself as my centre of my world since, giving up so much for other ppl made me lose so much and with almost ZERO RETURNS is pretty much unappealing hence, since now tt I'm free from those bindings, some quality chill time for myself wldn be too much right.?

Yup tts.. Me. I'm self-centered for now. And even tho I sincerely hoped tt I cld be part of ur life and express my concerns abt u even when u felt tt the whole world is against u but. All I cld do is to, forget u and not appear in ur life anymore.

ill be cool. ill remain as a spectator, jus watching and praying for ur happiness. for as long as i can before i move on yea? ok bye.

Drunk

So I slept a hell lot ytd and today. Went for some horrible drinking session and puked my ass off. Sigh I'm totally nt as gd as I used to be. Well jus being worse than before. The hangover is rly bad and I had to lay in bed till 2+Pm today. For wad, I Duno. But well perhaps for a fren.? Since he ain't feeling all too happy or smth.

Well supposed to b a fun experience if I didn overshot the limit again-_-
K well so it's done, luckily I didn rly lose anything this time heh. So it's cool.

Haf to remember. Haf to remember. Cuz I'm slowly getting dragged by those annoying pride issues but, yea I'm slowly forgetting things tt are rly impt. So YES.

Do not forget bro. Keep it in mind. Remb. Ur goal.

Oboimashita.

I remembered.

After swimming around in the mud pool for a month, or rather disgusting coffee pool, my life has been abt surviving week after week, getting by day by day. Feeling disgusted, unhappy, humiliated. I almost forgot about my goals. My goal is not to just about surviving, it's about..triumphing. It's about looking down at the world frm the top.

So tt I can be a greater person, a greater person who can get ur heart fluttering, a greater person who can have u. Well even if I didn manage to get u, being great will make me satisfied enuf. So...ha. Tho u didn do anything, we aren't even in contact. I'm jus being a creep, probably, but err if u look at it frm another point of view, it's jus about a man. Wanting to be become better becuz he has a goal in mind.?

Well i guess it's rly hard for a man to slog his guts out if he doesn't has a goal in mind. Be it a short term or a long term one, be it a meaningful one or not, the act of working hard towards smth is worthy enough of praise. So... Perhaps good job cy. Go and fufill ur, my destiny.

Thank u. Regardless, hmm.. Jus for being, erm u noe, yea. Ok.

Thank u nonetheless.

Let me.

Let me forget the past.
Let me have the courage to step into the real world.
Let me ignore all the minor unhappiness caused by insignificant filths.
Let me haf to motivation to finish up my studies. Mayb tml, mayb. Soon pls.

Those memories are pretty annoying, tt urge to go back to the times when I'm happy, having someone who managed to move my heart. But, reality says tt it's alr over. There's no way to go back to tt moment anymore. So I jus let out a deep sigh and go into a minor depression. For abt. 0.062144 seconds.? Den I remembered tt I shld b working hard towards my goal. The studying tt needa to be done. So yea able to put it aside. Tho it will jus come back every once in a while.. But I guess it's fine. I'll live.
So yup saw, someone tt looks like someone who used to matter a lot to me so, thus the surge of emotions. Well, I'm still gon be me. I'm still gonna be heartless and cold. I shld be, if not, I wld b hurt again. Which won't be nice.

Mega distracted

Much as I'm motivated to study, workin in a cafe is definitely a dream crusher. Lol. I had this moment  whereby I totally wanted squash all of their conceited ass but, hhahaa. The nxt moment I remb tt these minor humans ain't worth my time. Haha no, they didn do nth, jus don't quite like myself being humble and all lol. Funny isn't it, since they're the incumbent and I'm jus dere for a while, I told myself to be humble and jus do Wadever they ask me to do. But after a while, my pride... Once hailed as the best, now.... Lol wad haf I bcome. BUT NO, interfering wif their business is totally nt worth it. -_- I noe, I've got better things to do. Like study lOl. But u noe sometimes.. I jus can't help losing in any form.

K fine. I'll. Calm down and jus briefly talk abt stuff. Hahah. Random thought abt my cash flow issues. LOl. I was thinking even tho I'm quite trying my best to scrimp and save, loads of random huge spendings jus had to come my way. Like, club, meds frm dermatologist, Errm prolly furnitures for my room too. Ugh so I was wondering whether my outflow is higher than my inflow. But well those were... Mandatory spendings so I don't haf much things to comment heh.

So I guess it's pretty cfmed. I'm most prolly gon be a groomsmen in July and sep. Heh. Side note, freaking reservist in dec argh.

K so tts pretty awesome. Groomsmen and all. Hahaa kinda looking forward to it tho I think I won't know what to do. LOL looking forward, wif some anxiety. Heh. I guess I've reached tt age wher... My frens are getting married and I Duno wtf I'm doing Lol. Well life's short, y hurry yea?.

For now... Tts all.! Yay hahah needa study but my hands jus needa touch my fone every now and den but nt doing anything

Recovery.

Took a day and a half to fully recover frm jus tt one clubbing. But why is it tt clubs are so empty these nights. With more clubs closing down, I supposed the remaining ones wld be full of ppl but it's proven otherwise. Why. Well. Ok fine. Heh.

Severely lagging behind my schedule. What's new. Mega sleepy these days for some reason k yes alcohol ok but arghs. Sigh. Hafta stay away frm it. It feels so damn bad every single moment at work lol. I wld be cursing and feeling down every single moment there. So tts pretty sad. It's like, I kinda need the money and time, but I'm totally nt fully utilizing the time tt I cld spare. Wad a waste isn't it, like I'm getting the worst of both worlds. Nt having money and nt studying. Wad now, Tryta buck up den, and I'll try to keep up wif myself .

Gotta immerse in music therapy. To remind myself of the happy times. Those short lived ones. Heh. Uh. Ah. .

smth better

I'm pretty much wasting my time away, I'm so gonna regret it few weeks later. Clearing out my room and my dad repainted it. There is an image of a classy black grey room in my mind but... Tt wldve required some money and I don't think tts rly ideal. I'll see wad I can do, with the least amount of money, making the most out of everything.

Decided to throw away those soft toys in my room, even tho it kinda... Hurt.? Hmm jus a little bit of reluctance to throw it away. Even tho they are all in a pretty gd condition, mum suggested  tt I gif it to someone who might've wanted it, but u noe, these kind of things jus accumulate. And I don't think anyone wldve wanted some 2nd hand, prehistoric soft toys ya.? Threw it away after staring at it fr abt 2 seconds. Yea, one has t be able to kill his emotions in order to be able to haf a nicer looking room. And so I did.

Tt aside, Ive also been doing smth routinely, well it used to be useful? K mayb not, but now it's totally pointless but I.. Jus can't kick the habit. Note to self, perhaps I will jus slowly drift away. Someday U will jus completely disappear frm my memories, but.. Jus not today I guess. Just. Not today.

Mayb I'll throw away all the cards and stuff tt piled up in my drawer too.

Just another yesterday's idea

So tt marks the end of this week's work schedule. It's pretty... Tiring, given tt I can't slp the night b4 for some unknown reasons. And I wonder why can't I behave cooly as per normal. Something inside me.. Is different and I don't noe what.

Yes am freaking tired after work today but I can't seem to be able to fall asleep at all. And so, I'm mega tired for the rest of the NigHt. DEN, my body started telling me tt "c'mon cy, GET SOME BEER PLS" and yes, uve guessed correctly. I went to get it, and I drank it. Lol as expected, I only managed to get outta my bed at like 3+pm wth.

Suddenly thinking abt some past stuff a lot these few days, perhaps it's jus me trying to distract myself frm the books, a pathetic defence mechanism of my brain trying to take a break frm studying lol. And now I'm mighty behind schedule and tt sucked. My lack of motivation sucked more. Everything else seemed so interesting to me nw, but.. I must press on. Must press on.

Less work days nxt week. Totally contemplating to quit On my way home. But... It doesn't feel gd if I jus left like tt, I pretty much wanna give em hell before I go. So.. Let's see wad I can do.

unfufillable dreams.

have u woke up from dreams that are actually seems to be an alternate outcome of certain incidents in ur lives if u haf nt did wad u did. tt dream..i was so happy in it to the point tt im on e verge of shedding tears of joy. with ppl clapping and cheering for me as i was reaching my destination, and den i woke up.
haaha i guess ive had awesome adventure in tt alternate dimension and the time has come for me to go back to my reality. so 'pop'

im back here. no one at home, no one.. ok one of my fren msged me and yea im 2 days behind my studying schedule. for some reason im super drained out ytd, mayb im too used to having a very relaxed lifestlye. lol. oh anw i finally met up with my frens who're back frm taiwan, as predicted. tt lie i told is starting to haunt me and well its like they noe i lied, i know that they noe i lied, but im jus gonna avoid tt topic in whole. cuz its like a wound tt nv heals and the more i touch it, the more its gonna hurt. well i didn mean to hide frm u guys anw, if i wanted to, i noe i can do it without anyone knowing but u noe, nah.

so argh im suddenly outta ideas, ill.. probably update later. bye. for now :)





Yes so my brain's pretty much dead in the day. Constantly craving for e bed and every other stuff except for studying. Sighh. K so wher was I, oh yea frens. I don't know if I made the right move in trying to remove as much as I can after I failed last yr, but I do think tt I needed some quietness and less ppl to explain to. As I've said a million times, nw tt I'm pretty much free, instead of enthusiastically trying to meet up wif all of my frens, I'm spending more time repaying my debt for being a burden to my family, always showing up to eat free food and not contributing much for them cuz I'm supposed to be 'studying for exams' well, tt excuse works pretty well all the way till, erms this final year tt I jus went thru, it felt to me tt they'd go like "lousy retaining loser".. Well yes I deserved it and I'm nt rly complaining. But well I'll try to go out of my way to please u ppl. However, I guess tt might cause them to start doubting my intentions as well, nonetheless, I'll do wad I can.?

Nxt, abt jobs, I'm totally feeling inadequate for any job tt I see on those hiring ads, nt to mention tt they are lookin for ppl who's got like experience. Those employers looking for entry level employees are also stating tt they are looking for ppl wif GOOD results AND/OR ppl with good internships. Heh. Makes me think tt I'm so so so pretty damn minuscule. -_- I wonder where my confidence went to. I'm. Such an eyesore even to myself these days. Tsk.

The journey.

I've been wanting to go on a journey these days. Heh. Not tt kind of journey ure thinking abt but just a short trip to buy some stuff. Haven't rly went out for a walk since.. God knows when. Lol previously I was bz preparing for my exams, den I started preparing for cfa. And I feel so detached frm the world even tho I'm always walking outside, I'm always outside with a destination in mind like going to work, going to study, going to eat. And not jus hanging out for the sake of hanging out. :| so I wld rly like to do tt someday soon. Like jus chill and walk ard, eating random stuff and not being bothered by other things

I wanted to go today but.. The thought of having a pretty decent free dinner at home deterred me. Lol. Wanted to jus get out of the house and stay out of those weird ass 'dinner meetings' ( bro's gf) but.. The cost of avoiding this thingy is pretty high. Haha. Like of cuz I haf to settle my own dinner. And I wld lose some precious studying time, and.! I'd Hafta find someone to haf dinner wif me and tt wld be pretty much a hassle so, I guess I wld jus stick ard. :>

So yes, I'm still constantly hanging by the edge of the schedule which i had for myself, tho I wld say "why nt cut some slack" hmm, I'm nt good enuf to do tt yet, and I'm slack enuf as it is nw, lol. Wasted a lot of time in the midday watching lame ass cartoons and napping. -__- so.. I guess I shld keep trying and use quantity to overcome the lack of quality.

K tts it for nw. H.m why am I thinking of u.

Meant to break

Abit slow but I only caught the meaning behind the lyrics recently, lol here goes:

"Don't dull the sparkle in your eyes
I know that we were made to break
So what? I don't mind 

I'm gonna stay the night"

Tt shows the sharp contrast between someone hearing smth for a million times and someone actually listening to it once. Heh. It kinda struck me, behind tt awesome dj-ing, there's actually some mini meanings behind the whole song lol. Mayb I'm thinking too much into it but well ok.

If u noe tt smth were meant to break, will u still go ahead and jus live wif it for the day.? Even tho the ending ain't beautiful, at least it's not ugly, isn't tt good enuf.? Trying to resist the urge every other moment and I think for nw I'm doing a gd job at it hahaha. It's like cy once said, how much u are willing to sacrifice to achieve ur goal will determine the probability of achieving it. If ure gonna gif up everything for it, u will get closer to it.
Yea now I haf a goal and I'm trying to get to it. Heh and u... Will most likely get in my way so. I Hafta remove u.

Oh yea trying to get used to irritating and stuck up ppl at work, it's kinda... Nt appealing but I guess I can manage tt. Heh, a preparation for the ugly world out there, and I wonder if I'm ready for it. Perhaps.. Yes I am. ;)) 

-__- back to studying. 

The same way home

So I'm on my way home frm work. On a somewhat similar route. Jus tt this time I came frm somewher else far away than b4. The freaking long journey home is pretty unappealing but well.. Let's see when these will end.

Had a can of beer last night and it was... Pretty much not enuf heh. But it feels pretty nice tt I'm able to drink it again.. For free lol. But as expected, I had to pay the price this morning cuz I totally felt slpy and u noe, the 'awake but I'm nt gettig out of this bed' feeling and I didn manage to study a lot. Thus I'm hyper mega behind schedule. Ha.. But ok I'll Tryta make up fr it tml, since I ain't working and stuff.
So I guess, it felt like I had loads of time bcuz... Yea I haven't rly met up wif my frens for q a while. Wad.? Yes abt mths.? Tts pretty sad but. I think it's still fine cuz time will tell, who are those tt stays, and those who leaves after u lost ur usefulness. I'll.. Get them back. When I get my job. Heh. Catch up sessions? Yes pls. Mofos.

Haha so for now I'm gonna save money as much as I can. I hope I can rly endure thru these days since I'm nt spending any money except for taking the bus to work and frm work. Food gotta come frm work... And home hahaha. Tt is my plan. For now.

So money, cfa, family, frens.... If possible. Oh I think I'm hungry nw. Tsk ok let's go cy.. Haf a lil rest and den go and study ok.? Yea

Living and let live

wad it's a week after my last paper. Didn manage to study a lot last week due to lots of reasons here n dere wif loads of random spendings. Mega tired last night for some unknown reason and I fell aslp at like 9pm.? Hah. Jobs. Oh jobs. I haven't looked thru it yet eh. But well, mayb... Soon.? Tho time is not on my side this time ard. But still, i strongly believed tt gd things are worth waiting for. If smth is chose due to a moment of impulse (w/o knowing the other options fully) one is bound to regret tt decision sooner or later. so yes. It's gon wait for a while.

I've been telling myself to keep my distance. I hope this time I finally managed to. As I've said. It's better to hurt nw than later. The amt of pain wldve been so much more. I'm suffering too. When u hurt smbdy, ure digging 2 graves. Haha tho nt till tt extreme but, roughly la hor. so yes, taking a step back and looking at the bigger picture, looking into the future, pls let it stay like this for a while. I hope I won't be the one breaking my promise but yes pls gimme the strength to.

Oh so abt my new workplace.. Things are pretty.. Normal. I hope things won't escalate downwards coz u noe, it's nt rly tt fabulous as of nw. Ppl were saying abt all the politics there and stuff but, I didn get to hear any so... U noe, if u didn hear anything abt other ppl, means they are talking abt u, or they are jus nt talking abt u. Lol. Tho it might sound pretty stupid but to specify, I meant tt they are talking bad abt u behind ur back or ure jus transparent in their eyes. Nowher close to friendship and stuff. But regardless. I don't belong here anw, I'm jus a temporary presence in tt dimension tt is bound to disappear someday soon. No probs. sry if I caused u any trouble, I jus wanted to stay low profile and jus keep out of everyone's way if possible heh.

Nonetheless, it's jus my 3rd day here so. Neh mayb I'll be able to haf a gd relation wif them or, I'll jus leave before tt happens. I'll do my best and, yup, stay out of stuff. Teh heh.:)

Tsk must.. Study.! LOL screw my lazy ass. Tsk

How long has it been

Wad...3days.? Sure did seem like helluva time to me. But nt rly. I didn rly did much these days. Wells yes went to work on tue.. tt wasn't particularly pleasant but.. I'll Tryta get used to it yea.? Heh, and ummm. Oh I bought my family a pretty.. Nice.? Some overpriced bak kut teh. But well ok. I rly do needa thank my family for Wadever support they gave me. Tho I can't rly think of any atm, perhaps not getting in my way or raining harsh words on me helped pretty much. I won't say tt they don't depise me for failing, but at least I didn hear their negative comments so it's nt tt bad. I'm totally fine wif ppl not helping, and I'm rly thankful if no one stood in my way. And they didn so I'm glad.? Kind of.

Heh. Studying wasn't rly going too well these days. I'm super sleepy in the day for some unknown reason. But well. I rly gotta buck up frm tml onwards.? K mayb sat. Hahaha. Cuz I'm working tml. Ugh tt very thought kinda disgusts me to a great extend. Wel fine.

Anw, been restraining myself pretty hard these days. It's for the greater good. Even if u can't see it now, mayb someday u will uds. If u bothered to look back wif a more matured mentality. It was a mistake to begin wif. It wldve been ideal if the seed of future problems are weeded out b4 it grew deep roots. So yea. I hope I can do so frm my part too. The lonliness tt I'm handling.. Ain't rly helping. Argh argh. Yea k fk it. Lol

Side note: had a rly weird random dream today. It felt surreal. And left me wif some lingering sorrow. But tt won't affect me since I'm so so so different frm back then  I've alrdy matured into.. Well not. Ive always been like this since then. The only thing tt changed was the distance between us. So. I'm gon wipe tt part of memory away I guess.

"Delete."

begining

everything tt has a beginning has an end, when one thing ends, another thing begins. slightly looking forward to it yays.
so its like this, im done like for real this time. wif my uni studies. and much as i wanna to talk abt all those sad stuffs tt happened before tt led up to this moment, i decided not to. cuz i dont think tt there are any wrong decisions. cuz, as a door shuts, another door opens. i dont think i rly wasted this year, i see smth more than living life and jus barely surviving. now.. i see it. i want to do well. i want to shove shit into ppl's face. i wanna step on their bloody heads. and tt shall be my motivation to wanna do well. heh =)

so yes. my future..seems slightly clearer now, at least i haf a direction tt i wanna go to. so yup. heres to a new beginning. and the end of other things. i hope.

lost no more.

Limit.

So I was thinking why am I so unable to concentrate ytd even after I showered and drank coffee. So I guess tts where my mental limit is. Or rather the limit of my "brain". While my mind is dead set on studying, I can't concentrate, can't absorb, can't comprehend. So my body moved ard to help stimulate my brain but alas, even with all those external stimulants. It didn work. I slept.

And even now, I'm barely awake. Tiredness. This sucks pretty much cuz it has nth much to do wif willpower. It ain't smth like "I will definitely learn smth if I sit here staring at this for 2hrs" so it sucks.
Well.. At least tt help me wif smth. Like it provided a gd feedback and I guess if I noe wad is wrong, I can improve on it.
My willpower is strong, but theres only so much my brain can take.
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And so I'm continuing after my paper, how to say, I'm pretty lucky.? The qns looks pretty familiar to me. Like the ones tt I somehow focused on, how Lucky can I be. So well still tired as shit. Won't say tt I'm gon score well but... At least it's nt a horrible paper wher I start cursing all the gods for pulling a fast one on me while I'm doing the paper. And no, wasn't thinking abt wad I shld haf for lunch too. Heh so.. I think it's a gd one. One interesting thought flashed through my mind tho ,"oh it's been abt 1 hr and I'm tired, can I jus stop now"

Teh heh.
"Time was your only ally, but now, even it had forsakened u."