time to fight.

uhhhhhhh my catherine is BACK! wooO sweet mother ;)
yea was referring to my computer hahah. always wanted to update but i guess a blog entry w/o emotions wld be kinda lame. SO its been delayed for quite a while.

and i duno why, everytime im sitting in front of the computer, my emotions, my feelings, dissipated almost immediately.

wad to say. i guess i was rather slightly emotional when it was really time for me to haf my "last day" at the cafe wher i had been working at. after all, tt makeshift family which i created at a whim, was kinda interesting to haf. reluctantly i had to leave becuz my studies are really deeply affected. not to mention tt the place had to rely on 2 incompetent fools. well one lacks common sense and is kinda slow when it comes to things but, oh well at least she's hardworking, so pretty much wont complain much. the other=.= yawns. brief description, weak. in every meaning of tt word =)

well well. its kinda sad tt i accidentally left my feelings dere. uh ill be back tho, so no sorrow. all the fun i had, all the things i learnt abt stuff and abt myself. tho it aint realli useful but, ill still keep everything in mind.!


argh so a few days back, i kinda haf this.. random thought? not realli random but jus felt like plucking off the thorn in my chest. so i tot i wanted to ask u "how are u". well well as usual, ure great at pissing me off =D till the point wherby, i realli exploded. haha not like i scolded sm1 or wad. its jus tt my feelings tt ive kept for so long. my thoughts my reasons my..everything for u flew out. Everything.

i..duno if my feelings actually reached u.. but at least, at the very least ive finally threw it out and not jus, keep it inside me. felt kinda mayb good? but still even i can tell every1 tt i dont gif any single fk no more, i lied. if u asked, i wldve ran back to u like a dog.
u wld think tt i went crazy or im jus drunk, but i aint. i...jus became truthful, rather than trying to hide behind tt retarded face and hide away in silence. bleh bleh. now tt its done. i hope my emotions, will not come out again. let them all die off tgt wif my feelings for u. i wish tt i can be heartless..again=.=... till the nxt person who comes along and make my heart beat again. i wish! sincerely hope so.

so there goes this heartless man back to his life. his reality. MY WORLD.

Dreams

I woke up from my sleep. To realise I'm still in my dreams. Soon, this dream will end and ill open my eyes to a helluva fight. A tough fight. the results of the fight.? Things looked bleak but I will not give up. I nv do.