victor n loser.

History is written by victors against the losers.
I don't love u so theres no basis for me to dislike him. I sincerely believe that this is done by my prideful self, that me who wants to win in everything, the one who wants to have everything.

Well, if I didn get part in the race I wont lose, if I don't set myself as a competitor, I wont...yeah. ok anw, yes. I should have the right mindset as a loser yes? to be able to congratulate and feel happy for someone who did well in smth else. To look at myself and try to uds why I lost, and why wld someone win. heh. ok fine I guess ive nv had the guts to admit tt ive lost, perhaps tts y I didn get to win.

if im making any sense at all. well will edit it again later.

life.
life.

Well, at least ive got enuf to spend, at least ive got a roof over my head. Things cldve been so much worse than wad I have now. are u gonna ask me to be satisfied? heh no. We have to accept wad we had achieved with pride, but its not a sin to crave for more.

instead of simply working and working and working.. I needa break outta this cycle. I needa.. get back on track yes?

right CY is always right.

Stimulation

i no longer rmb how Long it's been, where i felt my heart flutter, with happiness and excitement plus nervousness. Looking forward to seeing someone, thinking of where we shld go for meals, wad shld we do after that.
Nth much changed bout my life and well, I just thought tt I shld document smth down frm time to time. Heh, for my own reference later on. Anw, yup as I'm currently on my way to work, I'll just end with smth quick to the future me.

Pls rmb this moment where u felt so dead. When someone appears who made u feel alive again, grab hold of her and don't let her go.