hello! its been a long while since i came ard. im feeling quite down today but i guess i shld still write in a happy tune cuz i dun think i shld be so gloomy everytime i blog.
ok i read my previous entry titled the moving life. i guess after tt entry, my life seems to moved on. went to work @ 2 places and its kinda like draining my life force away. luckily im made of better materials as compared to normal humans but, i've been thinking 'did i bit a chunk too big for myself?'
i guess i overestimated myself a lil too much, i tot i cld handle both sides well but apparantly, im doing very poorly on 1 side. so bad tt i feel so ashamed of myself, so bad tt i gathered a bunch of ppl to bitch abt mi. i unds tt bitching is human nature, but, i jus hate it when im the topic for it. well well. things will get better. plz work hard chaoyi, destroy those assholes ok? its ok, u are jus being lousy at smth which is nt ur speciality, plz work harder! ignore those negative voices and keep pushing forward. i noe u do nt haf the extreme intelligence but u haf the guts, the guts nv to give up, and tt will be ur edge to slay anything tt comes into ur way ok? GO GO FIGHTING!
okok putting tt aside,
i guess this might be fate or wadever, i met my SP @ rws while working. my god, i realli wish to noe her better but, grrr im too shy and stuff. but lets hope i will haf more chances to meet her and lets hope i can advance and yea! ( highly impossible)
but yea
its been 2 years since i let u go, this time im nt leaving without u.
ikimasho. Gambatte ne chaoyi san.
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