Our times.? wow.

managed to catch tt movie online. yay :) and watching it on a weekday is pretty.... bad I guess. haha given tt I was captured into that movie's story line and all.

Ok so the movie's like this girl likes this guy and this guy likes this girl but they didn dare to say it out, and heck they ended up missing one another for years and then they somehow magically met again with sort of like a happily ever after ending.

Sets me thinking, like seriously, the probability of such coincidence happening is so minute. So many ppl forgets abt the person they 'loved' during school years and moves on in life. Even if u meet with him/her after years of no contact and all,(1) what's the probability tt tt person is still single and available (2) the person u knew is no longer there ( character wise) he/she's gonna become a stranger and there's a gd chance tt u will think tt "I Guess I no longer feel anything for her" not to add on how awkward it's gonna be after so many years of not meeting lol.


It'd been a couple of days had passed so I had tried my best to put my feelings into words but ok tts pretty much all I'd felt about the whole storyline and all.


Tt aside I was thinking to myself. Seems tt I had worked so hard tt I've forgotten how to live. How to interact with ppl outside work. In addition, have I changed.? Have I changed much.? If I had the chance to meet u ppl again, can u recognise me.? I don't know. I no longer know anything anymore. But nxt week I'm on a short break so.. Hell yeah.*:)

Giving up.

Have I mentioned about how hard it is to make a choice between giving up and trying harder? It's rly pretty eAsy to just say "I give up, this is impossible". It's prolly not a good thing but as we gain more knowledge and experience, its really easy to say "hey, this is not gonna work. we shouldn even try"

I just lost like the opportunity to.... you noe, get to know someone new, due to whatever the reason. I guess I didn have the guts to try, I don't have the courage to approach cuz I worry abt this and that. too many a times I didn even try, telling myself tt its not gonna work even if I try anw. but ah.. anw. nobdy know if tt is a good thing or a bad thing.


I simply sucked. I just lost tt chance again.

I don't even know you, so y am I missing you.=.=\

the villain.

funny how we were in the same place but we've never met. funny how I missed you but u didn know that.



i don't know if this is considered a bad thing but, i sparked the dead attraction in you whereby i do not intend to be responsible for.

I'm slowly slipping into becoming the villain. I'm consumed by hatred, by life, by the unfairness, such tt i wanted to hurt someone else in return. it is not the right thing but it is a natural thing to do.

Hurt or be hurt. which party would you prefer to be.
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