confessions.

been a while, been living in a fantasy world whereby i kept working and working and working and working and not realli studying. gah. screwed up but im gonna jus go to the main topic.

i dont suppose i can say it to anyone, and im dying to say it somewher, so, lets jus do it here =)

to (1)

for a moment, i totally forgot about all the pain uve caused me in the past, naively i thought things could be like before. i wonder if its luck or misfortune. the sight of seeing u.....getting on another guy's car and going on a date with him. that feeling, i remembered so vividly when i saw a guy wif u at the polyclinic. tt pain. tt suffocation, i will never forget.
u didn noe the truth. in fact, no one knows the truth. except for me. the feeling of having a glimmer of hope and tt glimmer that got destroyed by the darkness called reality. welll in everyone else's eyes and ur eyes, u just thought tt im lazy and shit. but you're the reason to all these. you're the cause. of everything.
the drinks, the coffee making, the skipping of lessons.

Drinking to forget you, making coffee cause its your favourite drink, skipping of lessons just so tt i wont need to see you. cuz seeing you, makes me do stupid things.

to (2)
i liked you. you brought some sort of solace to the dark moment in my life. i...had fun.. i smiled and i forgot abt the shit tt happened to me. i was never sure of my feelings, i always thought tt the mytery abt ur background is rather, unappealing. well, only until recently i realized, feelings, doesnt require any reasonings.
we werent meant for each other but, i still want to thank you, mayb its bcuz of u, i was able to get out of tt dark shroud tt almost consumed me. thank you very much. i sincerely hope tt u will be able to achieve happiness in these few years and no assholes will hurt u. please. protect urself well.

to (3)
U're special. i see it in u. many guys will start queuing up to win ur heart and i sincerely hope tt wont change wad u are right now, cuz ure rated A++ now =) u make me regret growing up. its sad tt we're from different eras, if i were ur age, i wldve fallen for u too. but i guess, if i was ur age, i wld jus seem like a pitiful worm crawling ard and probably not even comparable to those charming ppl around you. still, plz, stay just the way u are, and plz, judge a guy properly b4 falling for him. it wld really hurt me if some young dogs hurt u, most probably i wont be able to see it tho but, take care plz.

tts almost done. the truths behind all truths, recorded down.its....finally.......done.