Connected.

Saw an insta post abt a fren of mine whom u know, fulfilled his dream after a year. Time... Had passed by pretty okayly and it jus prompted me to recall "wad was I thinking of/ what was I doing last year??"

Last year I believe I'm still unemployed. Self wallowing in my own sorrow created by myself. I don't know wad tt was for but yea, was drowning in beer and Low self-esteem? Ego.? Yea trying my best to get out of the situation on my own while cursing at my own wretched fate. So one year later, here I am. Still cursing at my own life, unsatisfied with the current status. Is this normal.? For human to constantly hate his current situation? Perhaps it's good as u know, unsatisfactory brings about change, change brings about improvement and yea.

Anw, if someone were to ask me if I missed anything from the past, I believe it would be ppl. Ppl who were pure and nice to talk to. Who sincerely would listen and share their life with me, now tt I think abt it... I don't think I have anyone who's like tt left. Tts kinda sad don't u think.? Mayb tts part of growing up, or mayb it's just me being not willing to pour my heart out to other ppl. But well yea, if only those ppl are still ard me, who will still be willing to listen to all the shit I've swallowed, perhaps I'll be happier.

If this is part of growing up I'll accept it. I don't think I'll die from it so... Let's leave it tt way then.
Yeah:))


It'd became a bad habit of mine to want to know how ur life is. I just refused to break the last bit of thin hanging thread connecting u to me. I mean, jus being able to know how ur life is kinda comfort me, even if it's just a little. This won't last forever I know, but I hope by tt time when all the threads break, I wldve been able to find another form of comfort.