Trip.

I need to calm down, I needa chill out.

and so I happened to join some ppl for a trip. I would say I'm rly srsly not a traveling type of person, especially with ppl I'm nt rly close with.

well. I wldnt say tt I'm totally unhappy abt the whole experience while being rly thankful for being invited, but I'm not rly enjoying anw.
but ok rly, its rly a pretty gd experience to remove myself frm the annoying lifestyle I'm having and trying smth new for once. so, yea ok, cool.


im back and enjoying my leave. and after a few days off frm my workplace, im sincerely feeling the positivity flowing back into me, ive always felt frustrated, drained, unhappy and also a myriad of other negative emotions. I have none of them now. perhaps it is them spreading the negativity to me unknowingly, perhaps it is me being in tt situation which makes me negative.

I.. am rly curious abt how positive I can be now and I even kinda like myself more these few days. hmm, but im pretty sure that this wld not last long. ill have to get back into tt dark hole again nxt week.

heh. we'll see how it goes then.


I think I kinda know what moving on means now. Even if I still think of you, even if I still want to be with you and the fond memories engraved in my mind will still bring a smile to my face.

I will not try to move towards you.
ive probably finally moved on.