MORe updatess~

ok...update again.. errm unemployed AGAIN. i tot by starting to look for jobs b4 i get unemployed will shorten my unemployment period but. obviously tts not the case\= oh well can onli pray tt my employer will call me soon.

take note.. its 1st june. my unluckiness is still clinging on. make sure tt u ( chaoyi) remb to update when u feel tt ur luck changed =)
- lost $30 in mj (zz u may think its cuz of my poor skills. but i still seriously feel tt its unluckiness.. SERIOUSLY. each time i see the 13tiles i get, i noe my good fren [god of suay] is wif me. not 4geting the tiles i get each turn.. owns as well)
- every1 else got a stable if not at least a job they like while i got a job tt is onli 1mth contract.. (after one and a 1/2 mths of search, and now im unemployed for 2 weeks.. again.)

hmm however, we shld be able to count our blessings in order to be happy,
im slacking so much at home and wasting my life away! its a blessing! <- as in seriously.

oh btw this period is also a pang seh period, why? cuz alot of ppl last min ps me..(its ok...serious) or, every1 is jus rejecting my attempts to meet up.(its screwed up... but i can endure..) WORST THING IS, THEY DAO ME!. nv reply at all! WAD AN ASSHOLE. i seriously hope, bad karma will find them. sERIOUSLY. yes, I AM CURSING THEM. CURSE CURSE CURSE. NXT TIME U SMS UR FREN, THEY WUN REPLY U.! bad karma will find u like how it found me. lol

time to reflect, yes, i used to dao ppl's sms last time and now i reaped wad i sow. =/ (i duno if its true but tts wad i assumed it is..) so, now im doing loads of good deeds so tt i can get my GOOD KARMA. =D i duno how long i will haf to do these good deeds in order to see a of hope, but, im so going to endure through it. I CAN DO IT.

o.o

hmm. updates.. am jobless for 2 weeks again.=/ weird.. why izzit tt ppl can find good jobs and why not me. argh. lazy to ponder abt such lame facts.. so cheer up and be happy!



ok, so..lets see.. wads happy for me.. erm.. staying home and sleep? haha its a plain and simple form of happiness tt is often taken for granted. a simple and relaxed life w/o any worries.. tts happiness.

lol but well well am really looking forward to having weird happenings tt can spark me up a little.. since ive been staying home for quite a while. ZZzz

calendar.

ohh looking at the calendar and reading those "wise words" from "wise people".. hmm the phrase for the month of MAY is "The time to be happy is now. The way to be happy is to make others so. - Robert Ingersoll" haha kinda interesting and rather true.. hmm after reading this.. im rather determined to MAKE OTHERS HAPPY! i wonder if i will be happy as well! so. yea. LETS do it!

June -> "peace begins with a smile - Mother Teresa"
July -> " Don't be afraid of the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it, you can make it so. - Belva davis
Aug -> =.= forget it... its not good haha
Sep -> "If you are lucky enough to find a way of life you love, you have to find the courage to live it" - John Irving
Oct -> "All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them" - Walt Disney
Nov -> "In dreams begins responsibility" - William Butler Yeats
Dec - > "There is only one happiness in life, to love and to be loved" - George Sand
Jan -> "The language of friendship is not words but meanings. It is an intelligence about language." - Henry David Thoreau
Feb -> Happiness is not something you postpone for the future, it is something you design for the present" - Jim Rohn
March -> A friend is someone who reaches for your hand, but touches your heart.- Kathleen Grove

hmm see which of them touches ur heart and try to apply them in reality!! cya for now.... needa go toilet=/

things+age.

lol. life is great! seriously=)

so ytd is mother's day.. so.. brought my mum out for MOF=/ haha im poor, so dun compare thx. went to tour ard and went home after a few hours hanging there.. kk so here comes the interesting part =) according to my bro. we board 307 and i was lucky to find 2 seats for my bro & i, (mum sat smwher else). i sat down and looked up, omg, my bro is so far behind mi, den there is this rather, rather... not very lean female who sat beside mi. i looked at my bro and he gave a controlled laughter. so, oh well i dun realli care...so throughout the journey, i didn realli get to sit comfortably becoz tt female took up a rather significant amount of space and ohh my, seriously.. im totally fine wif it.
kk so it was raining heavily when we reached our stop. ->(there is a small side story but i dun really wanna write it down here.)<- My mother had an umbrella so she went the unsheltered way bcoz she will haf to go through a flight of stairs if she wants to go from the sheltered walkway ( she hates stairs) . my bro and i took the sheltered walkway as we do not haf umbrealla. "seriously what is she tinking abt=.= its jus a flight of stairs." i told my bro. jus right after i finish the sentence, i slipped and slided down the flight of stairs. =) erm its literally SLIDE down.. wif my ass. as in can u imagine playing a slide in a playground but the slide is substituted wif stairs. so my ass went "bump..!bump..!bump..!bump..!.... BUMP!" until i reached the ground level. lOL. my specs flew and my slippers came off as well. i ended wif a sitting position and i laughed out loud. my bro luffed as well. den this middle-aged couple came to me and asked if im ok. omg. its like the ultimate disgrace. i told them tt im fine and i picked up and left.. laughing. tts when my bro told mi, "wow. ur life is realli very exciting. first u got squeezed by a *quote* FAT girl *unquote* den u slip and fell down the stairs. it jus like a series of unfortunate events!" haha i luffed and tot to myself.."tts my luck. wads new."

yup. so tts the interesting weekend nt forgetting being PS-ed by 2 frens simultaneously and my bum hurts =). OH. i wore a white shorts when i slipped and fell down the stairs.=) how lucky.

kk its another chapter frm here after..
as usual i went to work and had the routine life.. i ran into a colleague in the toilet & we had a casual chat.. he asked me "u jus finished poly? waiting for army? or are u still studying in poly". lol den i told him, i finished army.=) as usual.. tt stunned reaction came=/ "uh?! u finished army alrdy ah." lol oh well nt the first guy anw. similar conversations happened last fri as well. hmm guess i m realli very acquainted with the word "poly". so, mayb i'll just claim tt im still studying in poly in future then. =) to reduce the amt of shock tt these ppl will experience.

so.. mayb a few points to check whether u are realli old.(in the heart)
- You no longer feel angry when ppl gave a younger guess to ur age.
- You read ur own blog entries from the past and u tot "omg?! was i like that?!"
- You saw "Students special" on fast-food restaurants and u cldnt figure out whether u get the promotion or not.
- You saw JC ppl in uniform talking loudly and u tot to urself "=.= kids."
- You look at guys wif a very short hairdo wif slope and black framed specs wif polo-tee, jeans, and a green colour backpack and u will exclaim "wah sian..nxt ICT shld be coming soon...=.="
- You see ppl wearing green jockey cap + uniform + green backpack + clean shaven hair + black framed specs and u will EXCLAIM "eew. cao RE***IT.!"
- You no longer find the need to say tt ppl are childish.
- You start to wry wad car to buy.
- You start to plan wad age to marry, how many kids to haf, where to go for honeymoon, who u are gg invite to be ur bestman.
- You feel tt $2 notes are nt realli useful. 10cent coins can be thrown onto the floor.(mayb $1 coins too)
- $1.50 chicken rice is a myth.
- drink ah? drink lo.. instead of "Drink ah?! steady steady! where?! drink wad?!"

and the list goes ON and oN! haha. this phase of my life is when i feel tt im old. but in actual fact, not really.. hmm oh well. a very complexed phase of life. am still young for the challenges ahead!

bleh. rather long entry. so.. "gotta enDx HerE lex WoRx. SeEx yAx veRyx sOooONx~!"

=.= haha am jus bored at work.

mmhmm.

cont.

Holy cow. i really was an angry kid.=) hahahaha super joke!
ok... i'll continue the update...
3/5
ahh felt a little satisfaction after realizing my plan(gg explore singapore). even tho its nt really of much fun but still. yes.
o.o after tt i went to meet my family for a nice dinner @ sunshine place. bro's treat for mother day, the zi cha stall is real good. shld try it out if u are loooking for a place to eat. ok went for dessert at xinwang yew tee point.

lol the i ordered grass jelly wif sago snow ice( good memory =) ) and my bro ordered some mango ice thingy. den the staff said tt the serving will be rather big and its best to share it. but i told my bro "no problem, im ard." den she luffed and said "oh u didn haf ur dinner huh, its really big leh.. u sure u can?" lol. i SERIOUSLY cannot take it when ppl taunt me or doubt my words.. burning wif pride, i said, "nvm jus come i can finish 1"
lol & so it came. mine was HUGE. and my bro's was HUGE-R( as in bigger). & he was like "oh, its realli big.. u sure u can anot?" zZZ i seriously hate it when ppl look down on mi or doubt my words. lol. so i began eating & eating & eating. wow it took mi some effort to finish mine, and my bro finished like ard... 1/2 of his thingy after i finished mine. so, i took his and poured into my bowl. & i kept on eating. lol.
after some time, i FINALLY finished everything and was rather, very satisfied with myself. lOL kinda dumb...isnt it? but oh well. anw, i realized tt actually its true tt u feel discomfort in the stomach when u ate too much ice.
=.=i had a stomach ache after tt lol & still have it till ytd. LOL it sucks but.. for the pride... its.. worth it=)

4/5
OH. back to work..bad start of the day when i realized i didn bring my key card when i was abt to reach the bus stop..ran back home to search for it to no avail..=.=oh well, missed the bus and was sweating profusely..=.= tt is seriously the ulti combi to spoil my mood.

aww was late and i cannot go in the office since i dun haf the key.. waited outside till somebody else come out den i sprinted to hold the door.. LOL=.= VERY.. UNSIGHTLY. aww reached my desk & realized i left the key card in my office=.= ohhh well...super boring.. as usual.. am seriously gonna die of boredom sooner or later..=.= read my blog archives from my JC days similarly i felt "WOW" again=). hmm was lost in my own memories until its ard 11+ (notice: i red my blog from 9am till 11++am) until my subconscious reminded me tt i am working! so, was abt to ask if there is anything for me to do den i turned to my left, i saw my colleague's screen.."Facebook"... den i turned to my right, i saw "Stylish outfit for the season" on the other colleague's screen, so.. "oh." i turned back to my screen and continued with my bejeweled.=)
i switched btween bejeweled..facebook..hotmail..etc till its 530pm.=/ the day was very.. lame.
zzzzz=.=


side note-> have u ever heard an Angmoh talking in real life? do u find it funny? i wonder why i realli feel like luffing out whenever there is an angmoh talking near me. the way they talk.. is jus... strangely..funny.

30/4, 3/5, 4/5

well jus some routine updates.

30/4
mm attempted to organize an outing for all the ex and current scorpion company instructors. its been quite a while since we last got tgt and i really wish tt it will be a really enjoyable and memorable get together session.. have been researching on wat to do and where to go for a couple of days but well... kinda got owned on the actual day itself as NTH.. absolutely NTH went according to plan... the place which i wanted to dine at... the after dinner activities.. all.. buang!

guess i jus sucked @ organizing things.=.=

ended up eating at KFC and playing LAN. wow wad a gathering. haha hmmm but good thing is we still managed to see that every1 is getting on well. so.. shldn be complaining tt much.

3/5
lol its a monday and the sat b4 was labour day. and so as usual, i left for work in the morning.. "hmm the bus seems to be having less passengers today.." i tot to myself.. "probably bcoz the schools are havin holidays"

i sensed tt smth is amiss when the bus reached the destination earlier than expected( due to less traffic tt day) and the office building itself seems rather... quiet. loL den i tot to myself "it cant be tt today is holiday bah... y nbdy tell me...." so.. i went up to my office and peeped in through the doors

"OH WOW. ITS TOTALLY EMPTY."

haha i wasnt angry tho, in fact im VERY happy tt i do not have to work! =) so, i smiled and left tt place... TO BREAKFAST! haha tts been my dream since a while ago... to have mac breakfast! =)

lol so i happily bought the hotcake meal & asked ppl to come out.

Qn: Why not just go home? Lame.
Ans: Cuz tt morning itself my mum asked mi, " u today got work not?" den i told her " shld be haf.. cuz nbdy say dun haf". den she answered, "even if dun have u better dun come home la. u at home so noisy and lazy, things anyhow throw duno how to put back"
=.= SO. i didn go home.

kk so got daniel out & went on our exploring trip. the 1st and i hope not the last expedition to locate new & fun places to hang out. Well brief bkgrd on tt, i was hoping to get a grp of 3 and go visit all random places in singapore to locate new & fun & fresh locations to haf fun during weekends. Hope tt i will really be able to locate new places & have fun along the way tho.

well, its hard to get ppl to take part, cuz its almost like walking ard aimlessly. BUT. it is this kind of walking ard aimlessly, tt new places will be located!

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So, if u are
-Young and bubbly,
-with an outgoing personality and
-Possess a pleasant and cheerful disposition

please email your detailed resume with photo attached to caoyi_36@hotmail.com to arrange for an interview & join this expedition!
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haha oh well explore AMK & bishan tt day and hmm cant realli say its good but.. nt too bad tho!

guess its rather long so.. ill stop for now.. still some stuff haven put in but will update again soon.=)

Time Capsule.

Time. haha its a very queer thing. read this if u are free

"siaNx...
haha.. today notHinG special..oni go SP?? hahAx nTh great lahx.. just that they all the project do until qUite nice lahx... the today's tour guide... haha damn funny lehx... after the thing then noThiNg much.. go hoMe liaox.. lolx when on the MRT horx... Super funNy lohx... got 1 couple so funNy...the guy pLay with the girl nose then me and zm say the guy dig the girl's nose shit.. haha then zm or mhao notice 1 ah pEh weaRing gay colour..then lolx that ah peh keep looking at a young boy1's **** there... haha.. real funny... all the biG sisters in SP no cute 1 oso... sianZ hahax "

This is a blog entry written by a 15yr old boy. haha i guess he must have felt rather happy when he typed these down. hmm interesting.. i wonder wad he will become when he grows up =)
time seems to pass so slowly everytime one is doing nth or doing smth that he/she doesnt like. while it passes by very quickly when one is enjoying the moment. what a weird sensation, so did time realli moved faster or its jus plain human's misconception.
no matter what, the fact remains, there is nth one single human could do to oppose that unimaginable flow of time. There will be a time when u look back and exclaim "wow, time flies" even when u remb urself saying "oh my god.. time is really crawling.." back then.

haha wad a load of feelings gushing into me now, cuz i was reading my own blog posts from erm 2005? and wow i was thinking which idiotic kid wrote this. Im glad i felt that way tho, it simply means that ive really grown, mature. all the memories were refreshed as i read through those posts one by one, i got so engrossed in my own emotions back then tt i forgot tt i was working. lOL

i was pulled back to reality after my colleague called my name. "oh, im working now." i realised. ho wow, it feels kinda good tho, i relived my secondary school days via this time capsule. i can picture myself and those familiar & nostalgic scenes which i had experienced b4 but haf put them away into a dark corner of my brain.

hah. felt refreshed and there is some weird sensations in me now. not those "weird" as in sexually but, mentally, i felt... kinda happy. genuinely.
im sure there will come a time in future where i will read my currents posts and exclaim "oh my, was i like this b4? im really such a kid".. tts wad i felt when i read through my 2005 posts. haha take tt chaoyi, u stupid young and idiotic childish kid. GROw up thx!

so, ChaoYi, be sure to smile when u read through this. i hope that u are finally happy now.

chaoyi = The younger me.
ChaoYi = The future me.

sudden.

there is this sudden silence that surrounded me. A moment ago, the office is still bustling with live, suddenly. there is silence. I glanced at the bottom right hand corner of my computer's screen and "oh its 12pm"

haha so i decided to write a blog post since no one else is in the office to supervise me =x heeehee work has been well, manageable.. rather simple stuffs for me to do. still very protective of myself tho, kept quiet and talked as minimal as i can=) to prevent myself frm getting too comfortable here and reluctant to leave after a month. haha its nt tt i hate it here, just tt i really need to find green grass out there.! if u get wad i meant.

oh on a saving spree tho haha spend <$1 on lunch daily now. =) good ass. haha life is still the same as before. nth interesting happend so, yea hope my recurring dreams ( being in love with a pretty girl) will happen in real life soon! jus to touch on the recurring dreams.. had similar dreams for 3consecutive days whereby i haf a girlfren. quite a loser rite? haha oh well its sweet dreams to me.

however wif reference to previous experiences, normally, nth tt appear in my dreams will happen in reality. haiz..

oh kk tts it for now. will update again soon=)

woOgffhh.. work.=.=

woOgffhh.. am working now.. nth to do so i decided to write a blog to improve my English standards and at the same time improve my typing skills. I am gonna finish typing this entry in one minute.

So, previously i have been searching for a job that is rather high paying and enjoyable. at least higer paying and more enjoyable than my previous 1.. so i've been hunting for 1 1/2 month. END up, =)

BUT, this time. im not gonna whine or grumble abt it.. i'll just let things flow peacefully. things will get better. definitely. YES! my life is gonna reach a turning point sometime! will be looking forward to it. Ooaghhff, guess tts it for now.


p.s. im in office typing all these.

Sore dewa, mata ne.

Effort.

update.

well well, on the hunt for a month now.. thinking back.. had quite a few regrets.."should have .... i should have..." lol cuz i turned down a few job opportunities.. now, jobless.. kinda regret it but OH WELL. i cant do much since i gave them up in hope of better opportunities.. well well. jus a wrong "investment" nth much to whine abt.

yea yea still jobless.. my frens must be luffing hard rite now... "cy is lousy.. cant even find a job." aww.. wad can i say. nbdy replies to my emails haha. mayb my resume is just poor.

kk tts it for now. nth much to update anw jus sleep & stone everyday.
oh. im learning jap=) haha

ohyasuminasai.

finally thought things thru.. phew. let it go. SUI!

life goes on.

yes. i stopped at the part when i overcame another milestone in my life. but that just brought me back to reality. The real world. the me who shouts @ ppl, who scolds ppl for leisure and command ppl does not exists. yes. the dream is over, i awakened & found myself lying on the same bed as 2 yrs ago. the problem which i tried to ignore in my dreams resurfaced & started to haunt me again. yes =) Uni.

im lost. previously, i would just ignore this topic & jus keep in mind that its not happening yet... when the time comes, the problem will be solved automatically. escape, definitely.. escaping from the harsh truth.. LOL =x

well well, short term goals first! found a job at Cold Storage as an ADMIN ASSISTANT / ORDER COORDINATOR.. take note, thx. not packer, not cashier, not storeman & not a deliveryman! =.= cuz previously whenever ppl ask me "hey where are u working at?", i will reply "cold storage"and immediately, they will give me a look of disdain and i noe wads in their minds.

"Must be some cashier or wadever lowly paid part time job". lol OHHHhhHH Wwelll.

mm drowned myself with work almost everyday frm the nov till christmas. Was reaally busy, but somehoW i survived. mm yea met frens to go out once in a while but somehow, i feel that the magic is no longer there =/ whenever i hang out with frens... i didn really feel tt much happiness, i laughed alot less than b4. wonder why. izzit bcoz i changed? or izzit my frens grew up too much, too fast for me to catch up with.? i dont noe. i do miss the times, when i can laugh with them till my stomach cramps. those were the days..

well well.. new yr flew past, den comes chinese new yr, an annual event when i will stay home and slack while my frens were visiting their relatives. Occassionally, i do get jealous when ppl were discussing abt how they hang out with their cousins & how much fun they got. while for me, that topic seems so foreign to me. ( since my cousins are in a foreign land ) =/ OH WELL. tts life.

hoo hoo was suPer looking forward to leaving my workplace as its really boring towards the end when we do not get as much work as compared to before. learnt alot of things there, i THOUGHT i grasped many of the relavant social skills & business skills + work experience. felt great as i get to meet loads of ppl frm the real world =) some in a more dire situation as compared to me, financially. heehee.. but nonetheless these little pride i finally gained were soon CRUSHED TOTALLY when i met my jc frens..

yes. i tot i grew quite abit after sometime back to the real corporate world. i was happy when i met my jc frens after sometime, since ive always been bz working working working.. living in my own world. lol. funny thing is, i realized, what i learnt recently, my new gained knowledge which i THOUGHT was so powerful, so new, so fresh, is nth more than superficial information. wow. lol my heart sank.. totally.

hohoho.. so my contract ends @ feb 27. was super happy that im leaving that place cuz i felt real bored there. yea. i THOUGHT with my work experience, i can find a job easily in a very shoRT time frame.
aww not to mention, the ghost UNI came back to haunt mi everyday, its not that i do not want to solve the problem.. the fact is that, i cant solve the problem! i kept on escaping from it nt bcuz im lazy, its bcuz, i cant face the fact! well well, im totally, really lost now. i have my directions, but i cant move forward.

well well. lost as usual, im unemployed for 2 full weeks now. my tiny bit of confidence which i build up. is nth more than a tiny flicker now.

arghh.. gonna get back on my feet. i must push on. THE HUNT CONTINUES. tomorrow.
I MUST NOT FALL!

mm met u today. lol. it was a un"expected" encounter. haha, why? thats bcoz i didn wanted to go there at all initially, some incidents happened & thus i decided to go. but, my weak & dumb mind secretly held on a small ray of hope that i will meet u. & wow. whenever i see u, i become weak & lousy @ expressing myself, my confidence level is at 0. i noe i did poorly everytime im wif u but. oh well im happy deep inside, plainly due to the fact that, i saw u.
i thot time heals all wounds, time will make mi forget.. obviously, i havent. i duno y im so weak.=.= so lame=.= so.. loser. but. well well.i noe my place.
probably jus due to the fact that i havent find any1 else who will make mi feel this way.
im a loser. i suck big time =.=

Shhh...

hmm.. do ppl still write blogs nowadays?
Oh well, i guess i will continue to update my life on this place=) for my personal reference haha.
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In case someone else other than myself is reading my blog, this portion is for u=)
well im back to writing blog due to several reasons, namely
- im really bored
- happened to stop by my own blog recently, i read through my previous posts and i was like "Oh, so i was like that?!" haha.. brings back alot of my memories and my emotions then.
- felt that my english standard is starting to go dOWN doWN doWN! & my frens told me that writing blogs will probably improve my english. so..
Thats abt it!
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ok ok ok lONG post again since i didn update for like err...1 year? oh slightly less than that. haha
where shall i start.. oh well i will jus continue from my previous entry..

May 2009
what was i doing then.? lOL i forgot=) basically from May09 till Oct09.. im still an instructor in the "Land where soldiers are born". so nth much to update abt.. haha was rather demanding and strict to those bunch people and wasnt very well-liked by every1.. but, im jus doing my job, and i really wanted to do it well.
plz do not misunderstand, im VERY well-liked by my fellow instructors, haha, really had loads of fun together with them. aww.
so u shld be able to guess who dislikes me? The top & bottom =) if u get wad i mean.

Blah forget it.. shall not go into details abt tt cuz its classified + its very long if u wan mi to elaborate further.

okok so from oct 09 onwards, i was gg on off & leave + MC(for wisdom tooth extraction).. heehee so for the whole of Oct, im basically slacking at home or out wif frens having fun WHILE still drawing my salary =) life was realli heavenly then.
wOoo 11 11 09 haha a day that i was SUPER looking forward to! haha its *** day. before that day we(my fellow instructors from my batch) were kinda like a semi celebrity among my junior instructors.. cuz the juniors will always "wah lau eh.. *** liao lah hor.. sian sia i 1 more year" den my reply will always be "aiya i still long la.. still long. dun say *** first"
UNtil that day itself.. i was sleeping in my office until i awakened by a few bunch of ppl marching and singing loudly=.= was rather pissed when i opened my eyes and look at my watch.. =.=5:50. in the morning. oh 5:50 was considered very early for me as i just came back from my off & leaves. so for the past month ive been waking up in the afternoon.. so.. for tt day itself when i woke up at 5:50am, i was rather not used to it.
but, 1 thing went to my mind tt time, "eh? isnt today my...my *** day?!" and i literally smiled to myself =) oh im smilling to my monitor as i was typing as well. haha so i got up, brushed my teeth, walked around, stoned, and packed my bag & braced myself to leave this place for good. alone in the office, i began to feel some emotions stirring inside me, this place that i hate so much, i actually developed a sense of belonging for it after 1 year in there. its actually a mix feeling joy & sadness for me. as in yea, for me. to me, it kinda feels the same as compared to my previous graduation ceremonies in schools. but b4 tt, i told myself tt i hate this god-forsaken place.. this place where my freedom is bound, this place where.. i had cursed so many times.. but at the point of time when i really have to leave, a weak voice in my heart is whispering to me, "im gona miss this place, this is the last time"...
no matter wad, i gotta go means, i gotta go. i picked up my bag and made my way out. i saw my fren & he said "wah *** liao hor u" , surprisingly, my reply was the same as before! "aiya i still long la.. still long la.." rite after i said tt phrase, i realized its.. now. now im gonna ***.. its no long still long anymore.. haha aw so tts abt it. i got back a card that SO many guys are talking abt. the pink thingy =)
on my way out, i didn realli feel much.. i wasnt as happy as i thought i would be. and i wasnt that emotional as tt morning. i didn feel anything. just "oh im going home".

aww aww aww what a long pOSt alrdy..=.= im just done wif my army life journey. but wow. its alrdy like.. errr 825words?! aww.. gotta sum up and just end this post first.

aww ive gotta say, ive changed. the way i view things changed drastically. aiyo, its hard to explain it here. nbdy will realli believe it anw. but seriously, ive changed. i noe it myself=) so yup the 1 yr 10mths not wasted.nt gonna elaborate here. zzZ will update again soon.. tt concludes my **my life story.. see ya.. for now.