sober.

its a quarter after one, im a little...... meh fk it, okay, to be exact its 3:05am to be exact. im a little drunk., meh i aint. if only it took more to get me drunk.

well i ran outta ice first b4 i ran outta mixer or alcohol. =D.
well a random update for my life, hmm now its 3:51am. i.. held off the update till now so tt i wld b less sober to update.

well to be exact, i guess tt ppl wld be more, erm truthful when they are more drunk and less sober.? heh. here i am now. i kinda drank more than i shld and im.. a lil bit.. meh. felt like throwing up. i gues tts where my limit was. as weak as usual. as fked up as usual.
i.. felt bad for myself. i.. cant love wad i loved. i cant do wad i wanted to do. in fact i aint even sure wad i wanted to do.
went back to work at tt same old place wif hope tt i wld be able to create a better workplace for them, since loads of shit went awfully wrong. how to say. in the first place, im not one who wld follow rules to the letter. in fact i love challengin the rules or wadever standard way of doing stuff. however this time, when i went back dere, its kinda sad tt nobdy follows them anymore, well its kinda bad cuz they didn even ensure the quality of the stuff there. as i always said, if u can deliever quality, i dont care wad method u use. im jus interested in the end result.

bleh those ppl. sighh. are jus cutting corners whenever wadever. so sadly, i had to emphasize on like rules? which i hated it to begin wif but them ppl, haf to be get their basics right and someone has to make sure they get it right. yawns. and its got to be me somehow.

i cldve, jus let things roll on its own. i guess nth huge will happen but, i dont like it, if no one bothers, everything crumbles.slowly, bit by bit, why wld i bother, hmmm. mayb cuz i dont like seeing ppl slacking off too much? or mayb jus coz i wanted to keep tt place running properly cuz ure there.

bleh i cant stay for long, and the moment i step outta there, everythings gonna return to tt screwed up situation which i dont like but...argh oh wells ill see how it goes.


kkk nxt issue! hvent met up wif my frens for a long while, theyve been meeting up tho.. like for lame ass lunch at some kopitiam=.= wtf. and playing table tennis? and basketball.. hahah all those shits tt i dont do.. i wanna party all night! and sleep all day but .. my frens arent tt type.. =( i guess i..... shld b alone after all. heh. tts it for now. i guess,