failure.

so here comes the first. i meant second failure. hahaha jus when i tot thing went pretty smoothly. when some1 doesnt wan u to pass, there are millions of ways to make it happen. i see tt its probably a sign. hahahaahhaha the scenerio tt ive prepared in my mind. i guess you didn wan it to happen. prolly for my sake but, are u sure? ARE u freaking sure i will b happier if this series of event happen?! you'd better be cuz im fking pissed right now. im STILL FKING Pissed.

it sucks to fail, its... nt tt bad to haf to try again.. its... bad enuf to noe the fact tt.. even if u gave it ur all, ure still not good enuf. however, i think its worst to haf to face the people who... believed in u.. who had faith in u.. and also those who looked down on u, who were proven correct, heh, they were right to look down on u. it hurts alot to look at ppl's smiling face fading away as i told them the fact tt... i dont haf a good news to share. meh.its not a first failure. and i dont accept failures well. not to mention tt there are alot more things tt aint going in my favour. sometimes i feel like i just want to ignore all those shits tt happened. forgetting them might make me happier but, sadly they persists and ive got to solve it sooner or later.

okay wel wel. enuf pessimism. life's fked up but, somehw, things will be better at some point.as long as im alive, i can flip this fking table round and make things to my favour.
hmm drank a little bit of beer and chatted for a bit abt life. haha the beer omg. totally makes me feel happy. tt chilling atmosphere... nt having to care abt anything was totally spoilt by the mere reminder tt i had to work the nxt day in the morning. omg. tt tot totally...made me feel unhappy. and i felt like i shld just.. ignore all these shit. and shove 1 middle finger in their faces. grr sry but im very angst these days.. cuz of all the bad things tts happening.

k lastly..! sry bout the long whiny shits. i think i saw a shooting star flashing past earlier. so i made 2 wishes. hahah kinda greedy but... PLEASE MR SHOOTING STAR. fufill my wishes PLEASE. im alrdy sad enuf and u... please seeing u shld mean some gd fortune RIGHT?! pls fufill them pls. wif tt i shall... look forward to tml ok? shooting star. ive.. alrdy given up all hope and began to start trusting u. so... stop killing me. please.

right.. tts abt all. i guess? yea for now.. i shall update this post if smth new pops up