that girl.

perhaps i liked you the most since we've spent so much  time tgt. and... it was really really painful for me during tt point of time but. i guess nw, we're pretty much " okok frens" and perhaps tt ending aint too shabby. i rmb wad i liked abt u, being a random girl who had so much rubbish tt we cld talk abt. always not ashamed to express ur hunger. tt girl whom i wanted to protect so much, i guess she is not here anymore. wad i see now is someone else. just...someone else. its pretty boring listening to wad u had to say, and yea, perhaps u jus didn looked as pretty as b4. or mayb ive just had a change of heart.
WHICH IS PROBABLY GOOD cuz tt point of life was pretty bad since i had to drown all my emotions with sO much alcohol and hanging out and stuff. now i can rly say im not into u. anw thx for becoming tt way, since we aint meant for each other anyway.


so, nxt, ure pretty much just a name to me nowadays. even tho i rmb how i liked ur personality, how u tried to maintain a stoic face even tho ure burning inside. heh we're so similar and yet so different. but i guess it cldve been just a fleeting feeling frm tt moment. and i really wonder if my heart will still skip a beat for u and ive been wanting to find out. i duno, but i wanted the answer, even tho it may not turn out well, i still hoped tt i can make the ending slightly better and not having us becoming strangers.


lastly. well i was wrong. i think i liked u more than i thought i did. heh but its kinda weird tt we ended with this. lOl and well i dont blame u. im at fault after all lol. it wldve been great if u cldve acquired happiness, tho.. heh. its not gon be forever girl. when ure down and out again, come to me. ill probably still be waiting LOL. since im rly gonna start working towards my future. tt... seemed to be bleak, while at the same time hopeful. it didn end well as well lOL and yea. i wldve wanted it to end better. nonetheless perhaps i shld jus leave u alone for... a good amt of time and see how it goes? when i was finally ready to gif u happiness, ure no longer there. aint tt a joke? to think tt i will fall to tt level.


well nonetheless, i think i shldve pretty much got back on track. with loads of revising to do, loads of self improvement to do, tml shldve been my final party for this arc. and yea ill do well nxt time and not create anymore bad endings. as for those bad endings, im definitely gonna make it well. heh. stay tuned.